My SO and I had a nice talk before I went to sleep last night. I decided that I would wake up early and try to get to talk to her some before she went to bed (right now I am 12 hours behind). She normally sleeps, relatively, early like 8-9 anyways because she must get up very early.

So I did wake up early and I messaged her. We started talking but I was still very tired, feeling lazy (and still laying in bed) and was soooo cold for some reason this morning in here and all these things mixed together and I just overwhelmingly wanted her to be there with me so we could lay together in bed and be lazy and keep each other warm for awhile. I longed for this to happen so much. I mean I do every morning but I could barely contain it this morning. Then to top that off she was getting so tired because she had a really long day and so she went to bed even earlier than usual. So now I'm left here still with too little time left to go to sleep and also too much time left before I really had to do anything and I'm laying there still cold, still lazy and even more alone with nothing to do but drown in the overabundance of my own misery (haha jk a little too deep there).

I had previously thought nights were hard having to choose between sleep and my love while knowing good and well that when I go she will be sad and/or lonely then which I hate knowing that and doesn't make the choice any easier and again back to laying in bed alone but at least usually its not that cold in the nights and also I know that sleep will eventually say when enough is enough and then I can be pacified from the sadness of leaving her with the calming hands of unconsciousness (LOL I think there is a pattern here with the deepness). Anyways, I realize now that, for me, morning time goodbyes are by far the worst.

So if you happened to find your way here and read a bit, what are your opinions? I know there may be a lot of people who don't have the luxury of talking in the morning and night, if that be the case the what is the hardest part for you about saying goodbye? If you do happen to talk in the morning and night then are either of them more difficult for you?

As always, thank you for reading this. If you are in an LDR I wish for you all the best luck! It's definitely a hard journey but maybe it is better to just look at it as...taking the scenic route to love!