I hear so many happy stories here about couples who are closing the distance, even from other countries. And then I try to figure out what it would take to do it, and the obstacles at my age with my finances look insurmountable, and the future looks bleak, even assuming that he would be able to free himself in a few years.
If I moved there, he would have to sponsor me, and, really it wouldn't be fair to expect him to handle all the expenses, even if he could. As far as a visa goes, I don't have the savings, the resources, or even the education and work background I would need to even qualify. If he moved here, I would have to sponsor him, and there's no way I could afford it, being on a fixed income on Social Security.
He keeps telling me to just stay in the NOW and enjoy what we have together on our online relationship, and not worry about the future. Well, unless he has a few miracles up his sleeve, we might have to settle for a life-long LDR, never meet, never close the distance. That's a life-sentence of loneliness. Very depressing.
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So Depressed I Didn't Do Much of Anything Today
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But first he has to take care of his tech problems. He got his data plan upgraded sooner than he expected, so we did get a little chat time in. But he's having serious problems with keeping his phone charged because the car charger isn't working. He needs his phone for work, so he won't be able to go long without it. But I suspect it will cut us back a bit for a while. He thinks it has something to do with the electrical system on his car, so I suppose could take a bit of time to get it fixed. Oh well, it's not the first time we have had tech problems. In the 4 years we have been together, I have burned out 2 computers, 2 monitors, and 1 laptop, and gone through 2 phones. He has lost one phone, and burned out another one, and we have had Skype issues at times. We joke about our energy being too much for the technology.
We have had issues with Skype way too often. His internet connection isn't great and every time it rains/there is a storm/the squirrels have chewed on the wires we have issues. Oh well, I guess it helps to be greatful for the times when the technical stuff does work.
I'm greatful that after knowing each other for two years (next week) we aren't bored and still find the other [add all sorts of lovely and sexy adjectives here]