...I'm not trying to make this another downer blog but I might have to think about halfway through or more than through our 2nd year if he still hasn't come to see me then I will have to think about ending it. I really don't want to leave him because I love him so much. But I mean even Army couples see their SO's more than us. I mean they come back and fly to see their SO when they come home. I am not trying to say I want my SO to join the army because I don't it's a comparison. If you will. I just have been thinking and I really am lost right now it was like me and my SO were holding hands and walking down a beach but now a huge wave came and knocked us down. And now we are standing and wondering what's going to happen next. You know what I am trying to say? I just want him here and for us to be together and end this distance and be in the same state. Same house. Together and have a life together. It's what I dream about. Wil it become a reality? I don't know. Stick with me, to find out. 