Hey!
Been planing on this for along time (Since i joined here, i even posted the first part in a Blog then deleted it) This is how my SO and I came to be. It's pretty long and very shitty in parts but i wrote it the best i could. Please excuse any crappy grammar and spelling
I wouldn't blame you if you didn't like me after reading this but it's the truth and we all know you can help who you fall for .
I'm 29, with 2 kids (Nick is 9yrs and Amber is 6yrs) I was with my Husband for 10 and a half years. We were married on June 12th 2008... and split Sept 2nd 2010. I hadn't been married long when I met G on Yoville ( a Sim like game on Facebook) and that's where our relationship started.
We met in the “bar” on Yoville, he was already in there when I arrived making a nuisence of himself and I was laughing at him. I'd been drinking heavily the night before and was hungover so I need the giggle. He said “ Should I stay or should I go?” I immediately asked him to stay saying I was hungover and I needed someone to look after me. He said he wasn't asking but singing The Clash and asked if I needed coffee. We went to the coffee shop (Lol god were such nerds!) and started talking about music and football (we both hate Wayne Rooney) and told each other where we were from (He got quite excited that I was from the same city that 2 of his favourite bands come from) As the conversation progressed we got flirty and ended up back at my “place” and we talked each other off (cybered,got naughty,had sex whichever way you wanna word it.) It wasn't something I'd ever done before but I really wanted to do it again with him. There was just something about him. I asked if we could meet up again and he said yes he'd be around at roughly the same time tomorrow. We met up again the following day (twice actually, in the morning and late at night) He was able to wind me up so bad with just a few sentences and I did the same to him. We got hooked on eachother and met up pretty much everyday. Each time we did the conversation lasted longer and longer and we got to know each other pretty well and as a result I started having feelings for him. I told him I was married with kids pretty quickly after meeting him but it took him months to admit that he felt terrible about being the 'other' man and I felt pretty rotten about the situation too. I was cheating on my husband of a few weeks/partner of 8 years with a guy I met on facebook and hadn't actually seen a real picture of. It seemed insane at the time and it still seems all kinds of crazy now but that's how it started. I'd confessed to having a crush on G but he just laughed it off and tried to “put me off” by saying he looked like Ricky Gervais (who I hate!) and saying he did a lot of gross things like pick his nose. I said it wouldn't work and he just had to accept my crush. At the end of July I was going away for a week on holiday with my little family and I was dreading it. Spending time with the kids on the beach would be awesome but it would mean going a week without speaking to G. I was upset, he was upset but we came to an agreement that whenever we felt the erm “urge” we would think of each other . I asked him to send me a song that I could listen to while I was away and he sent me I Melt With You,a song by a group called Modern English. We added each other to MSN just in case and said our goodbyes expecting not to speak for a week. 2 days into the holiday and at least 50 plays of our song I was feeling pretty lost. Nick (my eldest) ate something that disagreed with him and ended up stuck at the apartment we rented. I went to the store to pick up some medicine and some beer for me (I would be staying in with Nick while my husband took our daughter out that evening).Whilst buying, the lady at the counter asked if I wanted a 24 hour internet pass.... needless to say I nearly bit her arm off!! The camp I was on had wi-fi that you could access with a code. I luckily had my laptop with me (to save any pictures id taken during the day) and the second my son was asleep and my husband was out, I opened a beer and my laptop and logged into msn. *Pop* I had received a message while I was offline from G.
“I miss you “
I sat there grinning like an idiot, glad that he'd missed me too... then I noticed his profile picture was an ACTUAL real picture! He wasn't my usual type AT ALL but it didn't stop me wanting him INFACT I wanted him more now as I had a face to go with his personality. So, I sent him a message back (he wasn't online).
“I miss you too....... is that you I'm looking at ?”
Weird of me asking I know but I wanted to be sure it was him before I made any comment.
G logged in about an hour later,what he said next was heartbreaking...
”Yes that's me, I'll understand if you don't want talk to me any more”
It took me a minute to compose myself, it hurt me that he felt so bad about himself.. I was quite an insecure person myself and knew how he was feeling.
I don't remember what I said exactly but it was something like this..
”Why would your picture change how I feel? It doesn't change who you are. Has anybody told you you have really kissable lips? X”
I changed my profile pic to one of me. I was soooo nervous I thought I was gonna be sick but that disappeared with his next 2 words..
”You're beautiful”
We spent the next few hours talking about anything and everything.
We shared pictures,stories and favourite songs and we laughed so hard. We started confiding in each other, sharing some past hurts and tragic events we'd been through and we both got pretty emotional. Surprised that we were telling each other things that we'd never told anyone else. It was just so easy to open up to one another, so natural. I felt a lump form in my throat when I heard a song playing from my laptop. So I sent him the track, and the lyrics.
Nick Carters, Heart Without a Home. This is the chorus..
If you're a heart without a home
Rebel without a cause
If you feel as though
You're always stranded on the shore
Like a thief in the night
Let me steal your heart away
Baby if a reasons what you're looking for
I'll be yours.
I told him that's how I felt about him at that moment.
He didn't say a word for a few minutes while he listened to the song.
”I think I'm gonna cry” he said finally, I told him that was all right because I already was!
He asked me “What have you done to me!?! I don't cry!”
I added “What have you done to me? I'm a mess”
It was 4am in the morning, we'd been talking for over 6 hours. And it was at that moment it hit me.... I'd fallen in love with him and without hesitation I told him.
“I think I love you”
“Then the song you're listening to is perfect” he said as he could see what song was playing via my msn status. Love Will Keep You Up All Night, By Backstreet Boys. Here's the Chorus.
Cause love will keep you up all night
It's not something you can decide
One day you're all alone
The next you're crying on the phone
Love will keep you up all night
You got a taste of sweet divine
It took you to the other side
Love will keep you up all night.
He asked me how much I'd had to drink? I said around 8 beers but I wasn't drunk! He lol'd and told me I should get some sleep and we could talk about it when I got home in a few days. We said our goodbyes and I went to sleep, never have I been so desperate for a holiday to end so I could get back home!
The last few days were agony, all I could think about was him. I even took photos of things purely to show him (I found a pinball machine with The Who on and I took a picture of a stunning view that I wished he had seen with me). When I finally got home I discovered our internet wasn't working. It was too late to call the company up to try and fix it so I went to bed upset that I had to wait an extra day to speak with G. First thing I did the following day was try and get the internet working again and was told it would take a week to rectify the problem as I'd just moved in and the original request hadn't been processed correctly so they had to start the process again. I was gutted! I'd already waited long enough and I was desperate to get back online. For the next few hours all I did was sulk then I began to worry. G knew when I was due home and maybe he would doubt what I said as I hadn't been in touch. What if he thought I regretted what I said and had disappeared. I grew figdity, and was desperately trying to figure out how to get a message to him. I called my sister and asked her to post on my message board on Yoville that I was having internet problems hoping that G would see it and know that I wasn't avoiding him.
Been planing on this for along time (Since i joined here, i even posted the first part in a Blog then deleted it) This is how my SO and I came to be. It's pretty long and very shitty in parts but i wrote it the best i could. Please excuse any crappy grammar and spelling
I wouldn't blame you if you didn't like me after reading this but it's the truth and we all know you can help who you fall for .
I'm 29, with 2 kids (Nick is 9yrs and Amber is 6yrs) I was with my Husband for 10 and a half years. We were married on June 12th 2008... and split Sept 2nd 2010. I hadn't been married long when I met G on Yoville ( a Sim like game on Facebook) and that's where our relationship started.
We met in the “bar” on Yoville, he was already in there when I arrived making a nuisence of himself and I was laughing at him. I'd been drinking heavily the night before and was hungover so I need the giggle. He said “ Should I stay or should I go?” I immediately asked him to stay saying I was hungover and I needed someone to look after me. He said he wasn't asking but singing The Clash and asked if I needed coffee. We went to the coffee shop (Lol god were such nerds!) and started talking about music and football (we both hate Wayne Rooney) and told each other where we were from (He got quite excited that I was from the same city that 2 of his favourite bands come from) As the conversation progressed we got flirty and ended up back at my “place” and we talked each other off (cybered,got naughty,had sex whichever way you wanna word it.) It wasn't something I'd ever done before but I really wanted to do it again with him. There was just something about him. I asked if we could meet up again and he said yes he'd be around at roughly the same time tomorrow. We met up again the following day (twice actually, in the morning and late at night) He was able to wind me up so bad with just a few sentences and I did the same to him. We got hooked on eachother and met up pretty much everyday. Each time we did the conversation lasted longer and longer and we got to know each other pretty well and as a result I started having feelings for him. I told him I was married with kids pretty quickly after meeting him but it took him months to admit that he felt terrible about being the 'other' man and I felt pretty rotten about the situation too. I was cheating on my husband of a few weeks/partner of 8 years with a guy I met on facebook and hadn't actually seen a real picture of. It seemed insane at the time and it still seems all kinds of crazy now but that's how it started. I'd confessed to having a crush on G but he just laughed it off and tried to “put me off” by saying he looked like Ricky Gervais (who I hate!) and saying he did a lot of gross things like pick his nose. I said it wouldn't work and he just had to accept my crush. At the end of July I was going away for a week on holiday with my little family and I was dreading it. Spending time with the kids on the beach would be awesome but it would mean going a week without speaking to G. I was upset, he was upset but we came to an agreement that whenever we felt the erm “urge” we would think of each other . I asked him to send me a song that I could listen to while I was away and he sent me I Melt With You,a song by a group called Modern English. We added each other to MSN just in case and said our goodbyes expecting not to speak for a week. 2 days into the holiday and at least 50 plays of our song I was feeling pretty lost. Nick (my eldest) ate something that disagreed with him and ended up stuck at the apartment we rented. I went to the store to pick up some medicine and some beer for me (I would be staying in with Nick while my husband took our daughter out that evening).Whilst buying, the lady at the counter asked if I wanted a 24 hour internet pass.... needless to say I nearly bit her arm off!! The camp I was on had wi-fi that you could access with a code. I luckily had my laptop with me (to save any pictures id taken during the day) and the second my son was asleep and my husband was out, I opened a beer and my laptop and logged into msn. *Pop* I had received a message while I was offline from G.
“I miss you “
I sat there grinning like an idiot, glad that he'd missed me too... then I noticed his profile picture was an ACTUAL real picture! He wasn't my usual type AT ALL but it didn't stop me wanting him INFACT I wanted him more now as I had a face to go with his personality. So, I sent him a message back (he wasn't online).
“I miss you too....... is that you I'm looking at ?”
Weird of me asking I know but I wanted to be sure it was him before I made any comment.
G logged in about an hour later,what he said next was heartbreaking...
”Yes that's me, I'll understand if you don't want talk to me any more”
It took me a minute to compose myself, it hurt me that he felt so bad about himself.. I was quite an insecure person myself and knew how he was feeling.
I don't remember what I said exactly but it was something like this..
”Why would your picture change how I feel? It doesn't change who you are. Has anybody told you you have really kissable lips? X”
I changed my profile pic to one of me. I was soooo nervous I thought I was gonna be sick but that disappeared with his next 2 words..
”You're beautiful”
We spent the next few hours talking about anything and everything.
We shared pictures,stories and favourite songs and we laughed so hard. We started confiding in each other, sharing some past hurts and tragic events we'd been through and we both got pretty emotional. Surprised that we were telling each other things that we'd never told anyone else. It was just so easy to open up to one another, so natural. I felt a lump form in my throat when I heard a song playing from my laptop. So I sent him the track, and the lyrics.
Nick Carters, Heart Without a Home. This is the chorus..
If you're a heart without a home
Rebel without a cause
If you feel as though
You're always stranded on the shore
Like a thief in the night
Let me steal your heart away
Baby if a reasons what you're looking for
I'll be yours.
I told him that's how I felt about him at that moment.
He didn't say a word for a few minutes while he listened to the song.
”I think I'm gonna cry” he said finally, I told him that was all right because I already was!
He asked me “What have you done to me!?! I don't cry!”
I added “What have you done to me? I'm a mess”
It was 4am in the morning, we'd been talking for over 6 hours. And it was at that moment it hit me.... I'd fallen in love with him and without hesitation I told him.
“I think I love you”
“Then the song you're listening to is perfect” he said as he could see what song was playing via my msn status. Love Will Keep You Up All Night, By Backstreet Boys. Here's the Chorus.
Cause love will keep you up all night
It's not something you can decide
One day you're all alone
The next you're crying on the phone
Love will keep you up all night
You got a taste of sweet divine
It took you to the other side
Love will keep you up all night.
He asked me how much I'd had to drink? I said around 8 beers but I wasn't drunk! He lol'd and told me I should get some sleep and we could talk about it when I got home in a few days. We said our goodbyes and I went to sleep, never have I been so desperate for a holiday to end so I could get back home!
The last few days were agony, all I could think about was him. I even took photos of things purely to show him (I found a pinball machine with The Who on and I took a picture of a stunning view that I wished he had seen with me). When I finally got home I discovered our internet wasn't working. It was too late to call the company up to try and fix it so I went to bed upset that I had to wait an extra day to speak with G. First thing I did the following day was try and get the internet working again and was told it would take a week to rectify the problem as I'd just moved in and the original request hadn't been processed correctly so they had to start the process again. I was gutted! I'd already waited long enough and I was desperate to get back online. For the next few hours all I did was sulk then I began to worry. G knew when I was due home and maybe he would doubt what I said as I hadn't been in touch. What if he thought I regretted what I said and had disappeared. I grew figdity, and was desperately trying to figure out how to get a message to him. I called my sister and asked her to post on my message board on Yoville that I was having internet problems hoping that G would see it and know that I wasn't avoiding him.
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