Leaving Home

[aeiouna]

Aeiou, it's funny, everyone keeps telling me that this movie is the right thing for me to do too, but at the same time they like to throw in casual kind of out of place comments like "It's never too late to change your mind or cancel". Getting the conflicting message is hard for me, but I'm trying to take it all in stride. I can't believe this is all happening in 10 days, it's pretty insane.

I've never had anyone tell me "it's never too late to change your mind," but I can see how that would be confusing for you (the consensus from my family and friends is, "If you don't do this, you'll regret it for the rest of your life").

And I hear you about "OMG it's all happening so fast." If everything falls into place, I leave a week from tomorrow.

[Sierra]

Good luck everyone on their move!!!!!!!!!!!!
May we all have our crap together lol

[LoveJ]

Leaving makes it really obvious who's important to you and who isn't, and forces you to think about all the little things you never really thought about before.

I leave here the day after tomorrow and this morning, it hit me like a ton of bricks that my family will be 3 hours behind me so if something ever happens in the morning, or I wake up and miss them so hard I just need to talk to them, I'll have to wait until they wake up, which might be a loooong wait.

It's also a reminder every day that as you go to these places to meet people you want to say goodbye to, you sort of take advantage of knowing how to get everywhere and the convenience of having those who are important to you so close. You have to admit that you maybe don't know when you're going to see everyone again, and for the older people in your life, IF you're going to see them again.

Closing the distance is a two-headed beast. On the one hand, you're so excited to finally be with the person you want to be with every day, and you know in your heart how happy you'll be and how amazing it'll be to have them in 3D every day. On the other hand, in the days leading up to it (and possibly the days after - stay tuned), your heart breaks every day and it's a very real awakening to what you're doing and how much things are changing.

You know in the movie 'P.S. I Love You' when Gerry says, "Life, as you know it, has changed"? Well, being with your SO changes your life. It's the beginning of the rest of your lives. But the life you've probably known since you were young is also changing, and leaving behind all that you've known is scary. It's an exciting adventure, but it's scary, and it hurts.

At the beginning, when you start making those solid plans to be together, there's so much excitement over finally getting to be in the same place that it's easy to forget what it means for the life you know. It doesn't make the "being together" any less exciting or amazing, but there's sure a lot of tears that go along with it. And it's completely, completely normal. I think when we feel so sad it'd be easy to question ourselves or our decisions, but then you realize that it's not that you deep down feel like you're doing something wrong. Leaving just isn't easy.

Sending you a really huge cyber hug.

[Michia]

Every time I think about moving away from my family in nine weeks, I have a mini-panic attack! I just have to close my eyes, breathe, and remind myself "This is what I want!". I'm still not sure what I'm going to do without my sister being fifteen minutes away. Thinking about not seeing her for months on end makes me tear up a little. Then, I smile when I realize I'll see him every day for the rest of my life. It's painful to leave my family, but it's the path I've chosen. Hell, my parents are already thinking about moving to Florida when they retire!