Visiting the family now since we've closed distance..
Recently I've been so stressed out- I've even been so stressed I'm on my 14th day of my menstrual cycle >.<
Speaking of, I've been having some small health issues like that and I plan on visiting my family for Christmas. My mother though, she wants me to stay for MONTHS to try and go to the doctors before insurance is gone. I just don't want to because my SO obviously can't stay with me because his college. I'm already not wanting to go because now he might even be able to come with me for Christmas. My mom is paying for my ticket, but can't afford his so his mother told me to just buy mine and they'll 'wait' for a deal. I don't want to buy it and then them not afford it and me not be able to spend Christmas with him!! And there's not any 'deal' coming up other than the price going sky high! I'm still 17 which is why I'm still on their insurance, but other than my long menstrual cycle there's nothing SUPER serious wrong with me. I turn 18 in February, but then again I still won't be able to get insurance. I just can't handle being here for 5 months thinking we closed the distance and then my mother making me stay for months again. I don't want to go home without him no matter what because thinking of getting back on cam with him seriously emotionally kills me. Whenever we were LD and he'd visit- as if it wasn't emotional enough when we finally had to get back on webcam with each other I always broke down. I know I'm supposed to be strong but I don't want to, and I can't!
Speaking of, I've been having some small health issues like that and I plan on visiting my family for Christmas. My mother though, she wants me to stay for MONTHS to try and go to the doctors before insurance is gone. I just don't want to because my SO obviously can't stay with me because his college. I'm already not wanting to go because now he might even be able to come with me for Christmas. My mom is paying for my ticket, but can't afford his so his mother told me to just buy mine and they'll 'wait' for a deal. I don't want to buy it and then them not afford it and me not be able to spend Christmas with him!! And there's not any 'deal' coming up other than the price going sky high! I'm still 17 which is why I'm still on their insurance, but other than my long menstrual cycle there's nothing SUPER serious wrong with me. I turn 18 in February, but then again I still won't be able to get insurance. I just can't handle being here for 5 months thinking we closed the distance and then my mother making me stay for months again. I don't want to go home without him no matter what because thinking of getting back on cam with him seriously emotionally kills me. Whenever we were LD and he'd visit- as if it wasn't emotional enough when we finally had to get back on webcam with each other I always broke down. I know I'm supposed to be strong but I don't want to, and I can't!
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