Terrified/Nervous + Happy/ Excited = Marrying my SO to finally be able to be together
I am terrified and anxious of the unknown. I met my SO accidentally, neither of us was looking, she was actually married at the time. Unbeknownst to me, she had a ticket to come to my city 2 weeks after we met. She was straight, I wasn't. We clicked since our first interaction and both of us were pretty infatuated with each other since the beginning. Our first meeting was unbelievably incredible, but neither believed we would see each other again, she was married. With 2 weeks of returning to her country, she lets me know her marriage was dissolving and she was going through with a divorce. She has come every 3 months and each time it is more and more amazing. We are in touch all day every day. We skype regularly, we fight often, and our sexual attraction is stronger than i've ever experienced in my life. I am more in love with her and everything about her, her charatestics, her personality, even her history. She has come out to her mother, I met her via skype. We are completely open with each other even when we are not necessarily happy about whatever it is. The girl has my heart. We are in a bubble when we are together. Neither of us are hopeless romantics but we have become since we met eachother.
Due to financial struggles, i either have to lose her or make a drastic decision to be with her for real. She is willing to do anything. In order for her to come and stay here for more than 3 months, I am going to marry her. I have thought of all the risks and am willing to make them rather than lose her. Am I crazy? I feel lucky for having met someone who can make me feel the way she does, someone that loves me enough to leave her country and family behind all in the name of love. I have no interest in being in a relationship with anyone other than her. She is my ideal partner is so many ways. I feel kinda crazy for even considering this.
Due to financial struggles, i either have to lose her or make a drastic decision to be with her for real. She is willing to do anything. In order for her to come and stay here for more than 3 months, I am going to marry her. I have thought of all the risks and am willing to make them rather than lose her. Am I crazy? I feel lucky for having met someone who can make me feel the way she does, someone that loves me enough to leave her country and family behind all in the name of love. I have no interest in being in a relationship with anyone other than her. She is my ideal partner is so many ways. I feel kinda crazy for even considering this.
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