We have been trying to bridge the gap for four years now, and each time I have gotten my hopes up only to have them dashed by cruel fate. It has all hinged upon his schooling and where he can get a degree. Each semester we held our breath that he would get the credits he needed to start a full engineering program, and each year it was a different story from advisors, admissions officers, and staff as to what he needed to get into a program. Last semester I really thought he would be accepted to FSU's engineering so that we would finally be in exactly the same town. NOT!!!! The college admitted him but his degree program told him they can't because he failed too many prerequisites and that he could only try again 8 years from now!!! I feel totally responsible for that because I asked him to miss class for a vacation we took in Oct 2012 and didn't realize attendance was class credit, he failed by those couple attendance points!!! If I hadn't gone on one vacation with him; we would be together right now!
Now he was just offered a manager position at his engineering/surveying firm which will pay him almost double what he makes now and let him get a surveying degree instead, but he will have to travel to class on Saturdays in Gainesville and stay in our home town for 3 MORE EFFING YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!! SIX EFFING HOURS AWAY, ME PROBABLY NOT GETTING TO SEE HIM AS MUCH BECAUSE CLASS IS ON THE WEEKEND!!!
He has one last chance to get in an engineering program either in Jax or Orly depending on how he does on his Physics 2 with Calculus class. He has struggled like crazy in this class and needs a B for it to count (Fine print says C+ or higher but because apparently his state college doesn't give +/- he must achieve a B). He needs like an 82 or so on the final test to get there. He got an 84 on the first test, but god only knows what this is going to be like!!! It all comes down to this last test.
If he does get the B and get into the engineering program, he will have to go into debt, and he is really not liking the idea of taking out a student loan. This option means we will only be 2-4 hours away instead of 6 and we will have weekends free and it should only take him 2 years to complete. It is better for us as a couple but it means he will be giving up $. I'm just worried he will purposely fail the exam so the decision is out of his hands. I just can't take another disappointment. My heart is breaking from all the last times we tried to get together and failed, and I just can't take it anymore!
(the other option is for me to just move, but I hate south florida and jobs in my field are hard to come by down there - I spent 2 years unemployed when I graduated fro college)
I can't do anything but leave him alone and let him focus on doing well on the final. I really should not tell him how scared I am and just keep praying that he finally can accomplish his dream of going to engineering school! Any prayers or words of wisdom might help, I just feel like I will die if we have to stare down three more years of long distance with less visits in between!!!
Now he was just offered a manager position at his engineering/surveying firm which will pay him almost double what he makes now and let him get a surveying degree instead, but he will have to travel to class on Saturdays in Gainesville and stay in our home town for 3 MORE EFFING YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!! SIX EFFING HOURS AWAY, ME PROBABLY NOT GETTING TO SEE HIM AS MUCH BECAUSE CLASS IS ON THE WEEKEND!!!
He has one last chance to get in an engineering program either in Jax or Orly depending on how he does on his Physics 2 with Calculus class. He has struggled like crazy in this class and needs a B for it to count (Fine print says C+ or higher but because apparently his state college doesn't give +/- he must achieve a B). He needs like an 82 or so on the final test to get there. He got an 84 on the first test, but god only knows what this is going to be like!!! It all comes down to this last test.
If he does get the B and get into the engineering program, he will have to go into debt, and he is really not liking the idea of taking out a student loan. This option means we will only be 2-4 hours away instead of 6 and we will have weekends free and it should only take him 2 years to complete. It is better for us as a couple but it means he will be giving up $. I'm just worried he will purposely fail the exam so the decision is out of his hands. I just can't take another disappointment. My heart is breaking from all the last times we tried to get together and failed, and I just can't take it anymore!
(the other option is for me to just move, but I hate south florida and jobs in my field are hard to come by down there - I spent 2 years unemployed when I graduated fro college)
I can't do anything but leave him alone and let him focus on doing well on the final. I really should not tell him how scared I am and just keep praying that he finally can accomplish his dream of going to engineering school! Any prayers or words of wisdom might help, I just feel like I will die if we have to stare down three more years of long distance with less visits in between!!!
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