Hello from NJ!
I am sure I am about to repeat every first post every written here...but here goes nothing!! GOSH AM I GLAD I FOUND THIS PLACE!!
I have been in a LDR for about 6 almost 7 months and I really did think it would get easier as it went along. Holy Cow was I wrong!!
Its getting harder....why oh why cant the world just shrink?? why oh why can't plane tickets be given out to well deserving people?? why oh why can't I find the money tree to buy all the plane tickets in the world!? and last by not least, why oh why cant I see the future and know all this heartache has a happy ending!!
But in all seriousness...its been hard!! (Duh right?) But most importantly I am doing this completely on my own with virtually no support from those around me...either family or friends. Perhaps that is a little harsh, its not that they don't support my LDR, they don't understand it or are overly critical. I am tired of feeling defensive because I happen to love someone 1700 miles away!! Once just once I would like someone to tell me how awesome our relationship sounds, and that he is a great guy that I am lucky to find. Instead, its endless doubts...its endless questions. I am constantly trying to justify why I am doing this crazy thing at all!! Worst thing...they are making me doubt everything. And I hate that.
When I break all the craziness down, its because I love him. I love him despite his flaws and despite our differences and despite the distance. He is someone I have longed to find. I need support...I need to know I am not crazy to be doing this. So here I am...thanks for just being here!!
*hugs*
Lizzie Blue
I have been in a LDR for about 6 almost 7 months and I really did think it would get easier as it went along. Holy Cow was I wrong!!
Its getting harder....why oh why cant the world just shrink?? why oh why can't plane tickets be given out to well deserving people?? why oh why can't I find the money tree to buy all the plane tickets in the world!? and last by not least, why oh why cant I see the future and know all this heartache has a happy ending!!But in all seriousness...its been hard!! (Duh right?) But most importantly I am doing this completely on my own with virtually no support from those around me...either family or friends. Perhaps that is a little harsh, its not that they don't support my LDR, they don't understand it or are overly critical. I am tired of feeling defensive because I happen to love someone 1700 miles away!! Once just once I would like someone to tell me how awesome our relationship sounds, and that he is a great guy that I am lucky to find. Instead, its endless doubts...its endless questions. I am constantly trying to justify why I am doing this crazy thing at all!! Worst thing...they are making me doubt everything. And I hate that.
When I break all the craziness down, its because I love him. I love him despite his flaws and despite our differences and despite the distance. He is someone I have longed to find. I need support...I need to know I am not crazy to be doing this. So here I am...thanks for just being here!!
*hugs*
Lizzie Blue
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