I am so very glad I found this place, there are days when I feel a bit insane to be doing what I am doing.
You see I met my SO two years ago online, we hit it off really well when we realized we had so much in common and soon found ourselves talking every single day (msn, skype, phone, text). We are currently both 28, I am from Miami, Florida and he lives in the North of Scotland. I never dreamed I would enter into an LDR in fact six months later when he asked me to make our relationship official I wanted to say yes but faltered. I was suddenly filled with so many worries and questions, many of which I instantly asked (to this day he says I ask too many questions lol). In the end I said yes and could not have been happier. A month later he confessed that he loved me, at that moment I realized I loved him too and told him so.
Since then we have had our ups and our downs. He calls me the strength, which I find amusing since I was the one who was so hesitant in the beginning. He hasn't always been easy to love (as I am sure there are moments he would feel the same about me), but even when we think we cannot handle it anymore, be it him or me, we can't seem to go on without the other. Neither of us have been in this type of situation. There are days where I don't feel like the strength. Days where I truly think I will go insane. We had planned a visit a while back (last year), him to me, but things occurred and that fell through. That caused some issues within our relationship but we somehow managed to work through them. Last month I booked tickets to go spend two weeks and two days with him in Scotland (I leave Sept 4), he is covering the accommodations and taking me all over the country and to meet his entire family (little bit nervous about that part, though I have met his mother once on skype). We desperately need this though, we are at the point in our relationship were we have to make some decisions, decisions that cannot accurately be made in our current situation. We've talked about the future many times but talking about it and actually committing to it are two different things. I think the trip will help that.
We are both extremely open with each other. No matter how hopeless we feel, how angry at each other we are, how very hard we try to move on there is this pull that brings us back together. We just cannot seem to do without the other. It's insane. I've not loved anyone like I love him ever and it can be rather frightening.
Anyhow, so yea, looking forward to my trip. This will be my first time out of the country. A little nervous about meeting his entire family but otherwise I am pretty confident about the trip since I know this will fortify us further. Of course that may all change as it gets closer.
Sorry for the essay and let me say in advance it's a pleasure to meet you all!
You see I met my SO two years ago online, we hit it off really well when we realized we had so much in common and soon found ourselves talking every single day (msn, skype, phone, text). We are currently both 28, I am from Miami, Florida and he lives in the North of Scotland. I never dreamed I would enter into an LDR in fact six months later when he asked me to make our relationship official I wanted to say yes but faltered. I was suddenly filled with so many worries and questions, many of which I instantly asked (to this day he says I ask too many questions lol). In the end I said yes and could not have been happier. A month later he confessed that he loved me, at that moment I realized I loved him too and told him so.
Since then we have had our ups and our downs. He calls me the strength, which I find amusing since I was the one who was so hesitant in the beginning. He hasn't always been easy to love (as I am sure there are moments he would feel the same about me), but even when we think we cannot handle it anymore, be it him or me, we can't seem to go on without the other. Neither of us have been in this type of situation. There are days where I don't feel like the strength. Days where I truly think I will go insane. We had planned a visit a while back (last year), him to me, but things occurred and that fell through. That caused some issues within our relationship but we somehow managed to work through them. Last month I booked tickets to go spend two weeks and two days with him in Scotland (I leave Sept 4), he is covering the accommodations and taking me all over the country and to meet his entire family (little bit nervous about that part, though I have met his mother once on skype). We desperately need this though, we are at the point in our relationship were we have to make some decisions, decisions that cannot accurately be made in our current situation. We've talked about the future many times but talking about it and actually committing to it are two different things. I think the trip will help that.
We are both extremely open with each other. No matter how hopeless we feel, how angry at each other we are, how very hard we try to move on there is this pull that brings us back together. We just cannot seem to do without the other. It's insane. I've not loved anyone like I love him ever and it can be rather frightening.
Anyhow, so yea, looking forward to my trip. This will be my first time out of the country. A little nervous about meeting his entire family but otherwise I am pretty confident about the trip since I know this will fortify us further. Of course that may all change as it gets closer.
Sorry for the essay and let me say in advance it's a pleasure to meet you all!
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