Hi, I am a 34 yo UK-based lady, who met her LD knight in shining armour online in a multiplayer game last November. We started off as friends and gamed / chatted for hours on end. In February I confessed I had feelings for him to which he replied he liked me but wasn't ready. So I began dating other guys, was in a short relationship (Mar - June) he knew about. He did admit at some point I had hurt him dating others. In June we had a fight over it (after I broke up with the guy I was dating), and we stopped speaking (his decision). I thought our friendship was over. I cried over it like I've never cried before.
One sunny Sunday in late June he called saying he can't get me out of his head. That I've bewitched him and he can't stop thinking of me. He confessed love. Many times and in tears. Shaky voice over the phone. He admitted he was afraid to start a relationship with someone he met online. He still had some life issues to sort out before we could meet, and I agreed to take things slow. I've loved him for such a long time I was prepared to wait a bit more.
I waited 3 months for our first meet (he lives only 70 miles away). We finally met in mid-September, less than two weeks ago. I loved every bit of it. Every single second. I was so surprised at how natural it all felt. Even though we haven't met in person before, we spoke and behaved like we've known each other for ages (9 months online, hehe). At some point throughout the dinner he suddenly stood up and walked over to kiss me .. Totally surprised I sat there for the next 10 minutes not knowing whether to smile or speak, or breathe :-D
We are meeting again soon, and have another meeting planned for early October. We still are in touch online but much less than before. And I struggle with it A LOT. My own insecurities and relationship history make it into a real daily struggle. There are days I want to end things with him, thinking I can't cope anymore. I am so used to speaking to him daily online, I realise the transition to 'physical' isn't going to be the easiest. Confronting own fears, expectations clashing with reality, and more. But I am looking forward to finding out what the future holds. There is this warm feeling inside that tells me to hold on because he really is very special. And I love him to bits.
I have only just joined this forum a couple of nights ago and I have already received so much support. Thanks guys!
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One sunny Sunday in late June he called saying he can't get me out of his head. That I've bewitched him and he can't stop thinking of me. He confessed love. Many times and in tears. Shaky voice over the phone. He admitted he was afraid to start a relationship with someone he met online. He still had some life issues to sort out before we could meet, and I agreed to take things slow. I've loved him for such a long time I was prepared to wait a bit more.
I waited 3 months for our first meet (he lives only 70 miles away). We finally met in mid-September, less than two weeks ago. I loved every bit of it. Every single second. I was so surprised at how natural it all felt. Even though we haven't met in person before, we spoke and behaved like we've known each other for ages (9 months online, hehe). At some point throughout the dinner he suddenly stood up and walked over to kiss me .. Totally surprised I sat there for the next 10 minutes not knowing whether to smile or speak, or breathe :-D
We are meeting again soon, and have another meeting planned for early October. We still are in touch online but much less than before. And I struggle with it A LOT. My own insecurities and relationship history make it into a real daily struggle. There are days I want to end things with him, thinking I can't cope anymore. I am so used to speaking to him daily online, I realise the transition to 'physical' isn't going to be the easiest. Confronting own fears, expectations clashing with reality, and more. But I am looking forward to finding out what the future holds. There is this warm feeling inside that tells me to hold on because he really is very special. And I love him to bits.
I have only just joined this forum a couple of nights ago and I have already received so much support. Thanks guys!
<3
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