I truly wish I had some good news. Considering that he does sincerely seem depressed having lost interest in his usual, I felt like I would give my last shot but I'm starting to truly feel like its a lost cause. I'm starting to feel like perhaps I am a fool for holding on to what glimpses I thought were real love such as his dedication to spending most of his free time with me, though I don't ask for it. The argument itself, I wouldn't judge as anything too serious/or a big deal but the fact that it seemed to originate from nothing, really makes me feel like he is just trying to push me away, till I break up with HIM. I know in the previous thread someone did mention that he could be too coward to break up due to having to deal with the Br CA issue which thank goodness is cleared ^_^ but maybe he is, but not for that reason. Just last night he said that the relationship has been really draining as it seems that esp. for the past week I've constantly tried to communicate the issues I feel we have and need to work on, and he said it's like a broken record. He listens, and so far the only thing he's done is suggest we play scrabble since I like that. He's been extremely tired because of work, and he said that things have been feeling off and that since he's unhappy, he just simply doesn't care to do the things to improve the relationship and said I should make him happy. The past week I haven't been able to be happy just because I seriously get the impression that he just doesn't care and I'm waiting for it to be his turn to try to carry the relationship. I really did want to give him the benefit of the doubt that he wasn't a jerk, or self-absorbed or just too immature for an adult relationship.
I understood that he has limited time (like approx 4-5hrs hrs M-F and all weekend) and I was spending it with him though slightly distracted by Adobe, working on a comic strip to cheer him up. He often delays in response too when he is doing something else. I even told him it was a surprise. I felt like I could just multi-task as he does. My response was literally a minute apart instead of the usual instant-response one time in the entire convo, and he said he felt something was off then my msg was instant. He said that he felt like I was "there" but not really, that the conversation lacked substance and just thought I'd be as eager to talk to him and that I'd miss him just as much as he missed me. Well I was eager to talk to him and missed him just as much. He even implied that maybe I was lying about working on Adobe, and really talking to someone else, knowing he'd be mad that my attention wasn't all on him. I just thought it was quite ridiculous that he got upset after I said that he's being silly. Silly for thinking something was "off" when I was even joking with him, to keep things cheery and insisting somethings "off" despite me saying that I was perfectly happy and responding as I normally would. And silly for getting upset that I'm working on a project for him and continuing to be mad when I said I'll set the project aside and asked him what he wanted to do. I just never thought someone would be mad when you say you're working on a surprise for them, still managing to respond normally as you would. He just said I did that because he pointed it out. Also said my reasoning was baffling and inconsiderate and ******ed.
I suppose I am simply wondering what do you guys think? Am I in the wrong or being inconsiderate/insensitive?
I understood that he has limited time (like approx 4-5hrs hrs M-F and all weekend) and I was spending it with him though slightly distracted by Adobe, working on a comic strip to cheer him up. He often delays in response too when he is doing something else. I even told him it was a surprise. I felt like I could just multi-task as he does. My response was literally a minute apart instead of the usual instant-response one time in the entire convo, and he said he felt something was off then my msg was instant. He said that he felt like I was "there" but not really, that the conversation lacked substance and just thought I'd be as eager to talk to him and that I'd miss him just as much as he missed me. Well I was eager to talk to him and missed him just as much. He even implied that maybe I was lying about working on Adobe, and really talking to someone else, knowing he'd be mad that my attention wasn't all on him. I just thought it was quite ridiculous that he got upset after I said that he's being silly. Silly for thinking something was "off" when I was even joking with him, to keep things cheery and insisting somethings "off" despite me saying that I was perfectly happy and responding as I normally would. And silly for getting upset that I'm working on a project for him and continuing to be mad when I said I'll set the project aside and asked him what he wanted to do. I just never thought someone would be mad when you say you're working on a surprise for them, still managing to respond normally as you would. He just said I did that because he pointed it out. Also said my reasoning was baffling and inconsiderate and ******ed.
I suppose I am simply wondering what do you guys think? Am I in the wrong or being inconsiderate/insensitive?
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