I got back yesterday from spending a week with my SO in my home country. It was the third time that we'd seen each other but the previous two times he came here. I'm not sure if it's just me, or does it get more difficult every time that you have to say good bye? I'm not sure if it was harder this time because I'd seen members of my family, of who I hadn't seen in almost 18 months, or because it was my country that I was leaving. But it was definitely a lot harder. I cried the whole time from when I left my SO to when I landed in Sweden and was able to text him.
The first time we said good bye it wasn't so bad because we'd only seen each other for a week and only been together officially for about 3 months. But I cried after I'd left him, and for the week after I wasn't at all hungry and just went to school, came back, and stayed in my room the whole time. He doesn't know that I did this because I didn't want to tell him and then to get all freaked out and think that I was being stupid.
The second time we said good bye it was worse, I started getting upset the night before he left (so he knows that I was upset then). And then the next day we were really quiet the whole way to the airport (4 hours) and then at the airport I was trying not to make our last moments together too sad, but when we had to say good bye I was in floods of tears and didn't want him to go. And then the same thing happened the week after, like it did the time before, where I only ate a small lunch for the week and only went to school, and stayed in my room the rest of the time.
But this time was by far the worst. I started getting upset the day before I had to come back here, and so did he. My last night there I cried quite a lot and really didn't want to come back. Yesterday morning I cried a lot too, and my SO was quite upset too and so was his Mum, because she didn't want me to go either! On the way to the airport we said nothing, only my SO's sister trying to make us a bit happier and not so upset and sad. I said good bye to his Mum and sister a bit before so that we could have some alone time before I had to go and that was really sad too - both me and his Mum cried a bit then. Then we went and sat down and talked for a bit but then I just got even more upset! Then when it was almost time for me to go through security we started hugging and crying and promising to text when we got back and stuff. But now I'm feeling really bad, I've been crying all day and trying to keep my mind off of the fact that we can't be together at the moment and thinking about the future, but my Mum is being so negative about it all (I'm planning on moving back to England any time between now and September) and it really isn't helping. She keeps saying that we'll talk abut it but she keeps putting it off.
Does anyone have any ideas as to how I can not be so upset all the time and make the distance slightly more bearable or anything?
(Btw, sorry that I wrote so much, it's kind of all relevant, I think.)
Thank you in advance
The first time we said good bye it wasn't so bad because we'd only seen each other for a week and only been together officially for about 3 months. But I cried after I'd left him, and for the week after I wasn't at all hungry and just went to school, came back, and stayed in my room the whole time. He doesn't know that I did this because I didn't want to tell him and then to get all freaked out and think that I was being stupid.
The second time we said good bye it was worse, I started getting upset the night before he left (so he knows that I was upset then). And then the next day we were really quiet the whole way to the airport (4 hours) and then at the airport I was trying not to make our last moments together too sad, but when we had to say good bye I was in floods of tears and didn't want him to go. And then the same thing happened the week after, like it did the time before, where I only ate a small lunch for the week and only went to school, and stayed in my room the rest of the time.
But this time was by far the worst. I started getting upset the day before I had to come back here, and so did he. My last night there I cried quite a lot and really didn't want to come back. Yesterday morning I cried a lot too, and my SO was quite upset too and so was his Mum, because she didn't want me to go either! On the way to the airport we said nothing, only my SO's sister trying to make us a bit happier and not so upset and sad. I said good bye to his Mum and sister a bit before so that we could have some alone time before I had to go and that was really sad too - both me and his Mum cried a bit then. Then we went and sat down and talked for a bit but then I just got even more upset! Then when it was almost time for me to go through security we started hugging and crying and promising to text when we got back and stuff. But now I'm feeling really bad, I've been crying all day and trying to keep my mind off of the fact that we can't be together at the moment and thinking about the future, but my Mum is being so negative about it all (I'm planning on moving back to England any time between now and September) and it really isn't helping. She keeps saying that we'll talk abut it but she keeps putting it off.
Does anyone have any ideas as to how I can not be so upset all the time and make the distance slightly more bearable or anything?
(Btw, sorry that I wrote so much, it's kind of all relevant, I think.)
Thank you in advance
We always talk on the phone when my SO gets in from school for about an hour an a half (today it was two hours) and then we send messages to each other over Viber, and sometimes Facebook, until we decide to go to sleep. Then, because I usually sleep before him, he sends me a super long message saying really cute things for me to read in the morning when I wake up. And I have sent him letters and presents, but he's not so good at it so I have to specifically tell him when I want him to send me something or write me a letter 
But I don't mind so much 
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