I'm seventeen and a junior in high school, my boyfriend is nineteen and a freshman in college. I live in New Jersey, he goes to college in Georgia. We are 757 miles away for 70 days at a time. The first semester there was difficult. We were adjusting to being apart, but we Skyped every single day and we were still inseparable. He came home, and we spent an amazing month and a half together. He left for college again in the beginning of January. The second semester was extremely different than the first. He was into the party scene more, and he was more occupied so we didn't Skype as much. It was okay though, I was occupied with the school musical and I was busy too, so it was a bit easier to get through. He came home just in time for my birthday, and he was home for a week. He left again, and finally he's coming home in seven days, but I'm not too sure what's going to happen.
Two nights ago, he told me that he has been feeling "different" and "less attached." He said he doesn't know if it's just the distance getting to him, but Georgia is becoming his home basically and it sucks without me. I asked him if he wanted to be with me, and he said "yes and no." I said "but I thought we had something worth it" and it turned into this whole thing about how I make him so happy when we're together and how there's all these memories he won't forget, but when we're apart it's so hard etcetc. He also said that he thinks when he comes home, his negative thoughts about everything will change. We've been fine, yesterday was our 9 month anniversary, but I can't shake the thought of him breaking up with me when he comes home.
My junior prom is the day after he comes home, and he's going as my date. We're spending the night together after prom, as in physically falling asleep together, which is something we have wanted to do since we fell in love last summer. Then, he's going to be home for about 2 weeks and then he's going to Florida for a week with his family. I'm so afraid that once he comes home and we go to prom that he'll break up with me. I'm scared that he'll do it to save me from the heartbreak of him breaking up with me before he leaves again in September, because he'll think he can't handle another LDR. I feel like when we see each other again, it'll be so perfect and he'll realize he wants to be with me and I'll realize I want to be with him, but I'm so scared that somewhere along the line we'll break up.
I really, really, love him, and I can't picture myself going to bed without saying "goodnight, I love you" or waking up without saying "goodmorning, have a good day I love you" because it's been there for almost a year now. I just don't know what to do. I want to stop thinking about him possibly breaking up with me and just be excited that he's coming home, but I don't want to get excited just to get heartbroken.
Can anyone help me with getting through these last seven days? Words of wisdom, advice? Anything would be appreciated.
Two nights ago, he told me that he has been feeling "different" and "less attached." He said he doesn't know if it's just the distance getting to him, but Georgia is becoming his home basically and it sucks without me. I asked him if he wanted to be with me, and he said "yes and no." I said "but I thought we had something worth it" and it turned into this whole thing about how I make him so happy when we're together and how there's all these memories he won't forget, but when we're apart it's so hard etcetc. He also said that he thinks when he comes home, his negative thoughts about everything will change. We've been fine, yesterday was our 9 month anniversary, but I can't shake the thought of him breaking up with me when he comes home.
My junior prom is the day after he comes home, and he's going as my date. We're spending the night together after prom, as in physically falling asleep together, which is something we have wanted to do since we fell in love last summer. Then, he's going to be home for about 2 weeks and then he's going to Florida for a week with his family. I'm so afraid that once he comes home and we go to prom that he'll break up with me. I'm scared that he'll do it to save me from the heartbreak of him breaking up with me before he leaves again in September, because he'll think he can't handle another LDR. I feel like when we see each other again, it'll be so perfect and he'll realize he wants to be with me and I'll realize I want to be with him, but I'm so scared that somewhere along the line we'll break up.
I really, really, love him, and I can't picture myself going to bed without saying "goodnight, I love you" or waking up without saying "goodmorning, have a good day I love you" because it's been there for almost a year now. I just don't know what to do. I want to stop thinking about him possibly breaking up with me and just be excited that he's coming home, but I don't want to get excited just to get heartbroken.
Can anyone help me with getting through these last seven days? Words of wisdom, advice? Anything would be appreciated.
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