Well, it's been a while since I've been on here...and for good reasons. My SO and I broke up a few months back and it was mostly due to the distance (but I believe she found someone else while we were together because she told me about this dude she's now seeing, but said that she didn't do anything) and while it SUCKED when we said our goodbye to the relationship, we're still friends afterwards. She told me that I should go and find someone else who makes me happy and whatever happens, she's behind it 100%. I told her the same thing, but after very little thought, I didn't really mean it. I always have fantasies that we might get back together because first and foremost: She was the first person to ever really make me happy and was the first person I ever fell in love with. There are other girls who I've thought about dating, but they're not like her...maybe it's the aspect that she was my first real love and nothing can change that. I know I have some girls that are interested in me because they show it without exactly saying (and I'm not bragging, I'm just telling it how it happens).
I don't know...I know that she's happy with this guy, and it should make me happy...but it doesn't. Maybe I'm jealous...maybe I'm suspicious that she was seeing someone on the side, who knows? I really don't have time anymore to see people because I work alot and mostly nights (I work as a deli associate in a grocery store), so I can't really have dates. It sucks too because I feel as though I would be a hell of alot happier with someone instead of being alone...I know I was when I was with Jess for our short 7-8 months. But, people discourage me from finding someone because I'm young and need to enjoy single life while I still can. I don't like the single life...sure, looking at hot women and all that great shit is awesome, but it's not completely satisfying to me. I'm the kind of person that needs someone else to be with. It sucks going to bed every night with nothing but my pillows to hold to, and it sucks to have a bunch of relationships with all my girl friends, yet not going anywhere past that: friends.
It's very irritating and I guess I just wanted to vent. I don't really talk about my personal life, so I keep it all to myself and I figured I say something to a bunch of strangers than to keep it and then unleash it on someone I care for. My ex told me I could talk to her about anything, but I don't want to make things awkward by saying "Hey, just wanted you to know that I'm still in love with you and I hope that you break up with that guy you're seeing and get back with me because I miss you soooooo much". No, that would be inappropriate....uuhhgg, I guess I'm not cut out for this LDR crap. But I say all the power to anyone who IS in one because it's hard as fuck....and if you can get through this, then you can get through anything when the time comes to close the distance.
Oh, and girls, a little tip: If you want to fuckin break off the relationship, don't say "I think we need to take a break". That's the cheapest line to use on someone other than the "it's not you, it's me" BS. Suck it up and say "hey, I think we need to break it off" because first of all, it's more direct and to the point. It doesn't lead the person on for a whole damn month before they crack. Second, they'll get over it faster. I know I would have because the whole "break" thing had me question myself for the longest time. Just tell them why and go about your business. I have no idea why Jess told me that we needed to take a break, but I sure as hell know that if she were to have said "it's over", then I wouldn't have waisted no time thinking that it could have been possible that we could get back together. In fact, I think she was WAY over before I was when she told me at one point that "if you love the person then you should set them free" or whatever kind of mushy shit like that. If she wanted out, she should have fuckin told me. But, I insisted that we stay together to figure things out. Of course, seeing that I'm typing this and you know that it's over, absolutely NOTHING was figured out.
ok, I'm done with my rant. If I get kicked from this forum for my language, it's fine because I don't think I'll ever be in a LDR ever again.
I don't know...I know that she's happy with this guy, and it should make me happy...but it doesn't. Maybe I'm jealous...maybe I'm suspicious that she was seeing someone on the side, who knows? I really don't have time anymore to see people because I work alot and mostly nights (I work as a deli associate in a grocery store), so I can't really have dates. It sucks too because I feel as though I would be a hell of alot happier with someone instead of being alone...I know I was when I was with Jess for our short 7-8 months. But, people discourage me from finding someone because I'm young and need to enjoy single life while I still can. I don't like the single life...sure, looking at hot women and all that great shit is awesome, but it's not completely satisfying to me. I'm the kind of person that needs someone else to be with. It sucks going to bed every night with nothing but my pillows to hold to, and it sucks to have a bunch of relationships with all my girl friends, yet not going anywhere past that: friends.
It's very irritating and I guess I just wanted to vent. I don't really talk about my personal life, so I keep it all to myself and I figured I say something to a bunch of strangers than to keep it and then unleash it on someone I care for. My ex told me I could talk to her about anything, but I don't want to make things awkward by saying "Hey, just wanted you to know that I'm still in love with you and I hope that you break up with that guy you're seeing and get back with me because I miss you soooooo much". No, that would be inappropriate....uuhhgg, I guess I'm not cut out for this LDR crap. But I say all the power to anyone who IS in one because it's hard as fuck....and if you can get through this, then you can get through anything when the time comes to close the distance.
Oh, and girls, a little tip: If you want to fuckin break off the relationship, don't say "I think we need to take a break". That's the cheapest line to use on someone other than the "it's not you, it's me" BS. Suck it up and say "hey, I think we need to break it off" because first of all, it's more direct and to the point. It doesn't lead the person on for a whole damn month before they crack. Second, they'll get over it faster. I know I would have because the whole "break" thing had me question myself for the longest time. Just tell them why and go about your business. I have no idea why Jess told me that we needed to take a break, but I sure as hell know that if she were to have said "it's over", then I wouldn't have waisted no time thinking that it could have been possible that we could get back together. In fact, I think she was WAY over before I was when she told me at one point that "if you love the person then you should set them free" or whatever kind of mushy shit like that. If she wanted out, she should have fuckin told me. But, I insisted that we stay together to figure things out. Of course, seeing that I'm typing this and you know that it's over, absolutely NOTHING was figured out.
ok, I'm done with my rant. If I get kicked from this forum for my language, it's fine because I don't think I'll ever be in a LDR ever again.
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