Ok I have to admit, i get this way once every couple of months and I HATE it! I know its the distance talking and i just have to get through the funk.
I feel sooooo frustrated. I feel like the distance is never going to end and i am never going to be able to meet my bf. I feel like I give all, and he gets comfortable with the relationship and then doesn't really try anymore. Like just goes through the emotions of it all.
For the last week, he like disappears in the evening. I have no idea. Like, we will talk throughout the day when he is working, and then when its time for him to go home, its like i don't even exist. He drives like 6 hours a day, and so sometimes he gets caught up in traffic or something...i just wish he would let me know, so I don't have to wonder...I text him and he never replies..and then about 11-12pm he calls me. I ask him what he was doing and sometimes he says he is just relaxing or fell asleep. Idk I feel like he just is like, well I know she will be there when I call...so let me just do these things for me, and then call her.
I hate feeling like I am second best. I hate feeling like i was just last thought. Like, oh crap I should probably call my girlfriend. I have been listening to a lot of radio shows about people cheating..its pretty funny...but then it makes me paranoid and I think oh man, what if he isn't talking to me in the evening cause he has another girl, but I KNOW i trust him, and I KNOW he doesn't have someone else..its just when I feel like this, and I can't help but think about it.
We have made so many plans to meet and they never end up coming through, and its getting sooooooooo old. I know that I feel this way because I want to meet him. I just want something to hold on to. I ask him to do simple little things for me, and they never happen. Its really getting to me tonight and i just had to vent. Thanks for listening to me.
I feel sooooo frustrated. I feel like the distance is never going to end and i am never going to be able to meet my bf. I feel like I give all, and he gets comfortable with the relationship and then doesn't really try anymore. Like just goes through the emotions of it all.
For the last week, he like disappears in the evening. I have no idea. Like, we will talk throughout the day when he is working, and then when its time for him to go home, its like i don't even exist. He drives like 6 hours a day, and so sometimes he gets caught up in traffic or something...i just wish he would let me know, so I don't have to wonder...I text him and he never replies..and then about 11-12pm he calls me. I ask him what he was doing and sometimes he says he is just relaxing or fell asleep. Idk I feel like he just is like, well I know she will be there when I call...so let me just do these things for me, and then call her.
I hate feeling like I am second best. I hate feeling like i was just last thought. Like, oh crap I should probably call my girlfriend. I have been listening to a lot of radio shows about people cheating..its pretty funny...but then it makes me paranoid and I think oh man, what if he isn't talking to me in the evening cause he has another girl, but I KNOW i trust him, and I KNOW he doesn't have someone else..its just when I feel like this, and I can't help but think about it.
We have made so many plans to meet and they never end up coming through, and its getting sooooooooo old. I know that I feel this way because I want to meet him. I just want something to hold on to. I ask him to do simple little things for me, and they never happen. Its really getting to me tonight and i just had to vent. Thanks for listening to me.
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