Update

[Rugger]

Thanks everyone. I'll try and keep you all updated as things progress.

I feel awful right now. I miss him so much and I want to go back, but I know that within a week, I'll be miserable again. I just want to figure things out and get back to my life. Basically everyone in my life says I'm the bad guy in this and it sucks. I just want someone to understand and it doesn't seem like anyone does. Me pretending to be happy would only hurt him more when he figured it out.

Marbear, I'm not normally a fan of breaks either. I feel like relationship problems need to be handled in a relationship. But this problem is me. It's my unhappiness, not his. It's something that I need to work on before I can give my full attention to him.

[ThePiedPiper]

A lot of people thought I was the bad guy, too, especially mutual friends of ours. He was apparently writing on Facebook about how this came out of nowhere and he had no clue what he was going to do etc. etc. and I had friends trying to convince me I hadn't spent enough time explaining everything and "maybe I should talk to him" and so on and so forth. It seems like people are all on board for doing something for you until you actually go and do it, and sometimes we have to live with that unfortunate irony. It's a ridiculous situation but in the end, you've done what you've needed to do. Like you said, this is your issue and your happiness and something you need to figure out. Sometimes it's easy to lose ourselves and senses of who we are as individuals when we're entirely set on making someone else happy, and sometimes we miss something not because of what it was but because of what it could have been if only one or both of us had tried a little harder (though usually, it's on their end that the effort was not received or made, if you're at this point). Sometimes the right decisions are also the hardest, and sometimes the decisions that make the most sense to us as individuals are the ones that other people aren't going to get, because they see only what you tried to portray while trying to figure all the shit out. Hang in there. We're all here for you.

[marbear31]

Marbear, I'm not normally a fan of breaks either. I feel like relationship problems need to be handled in a relationship. But this problem is me. It's my unhappiness, not his. It's something that I need to work on before I can give my full attention to him.

That would definitely be one of the reasons I see a break as feasible. Like I said before, I think this is definitely the right decision for you guys, and if you know in your heart of hearts that this is what you need to do, stick to your guns. LFAD's behind you every step of the way, and I'm just a PM away if you ever need a virtual hug or just someone to talk to.