It' s been 2 months (really??) since that final visit.
It was a great visit. It started out awkwardly (I mean, he DID dump me in a confused rambling phone call just a few days prior) but we ended up falling back into eachothers steps. He cried and apologized for the phone call, said he really did love me, especially seeing me now, that he didn't know what he was thinking. For that weekend it was perfect, and we talked about me moving in just a couple of months to his city and then we could try again. We had amazing sex that weekend. He took me on a date and we shared wine and went for walks and just, basked in eachothers company. He dropped me off at the airport, kissed me goodbye and said "I love you so much."
I got off the plane, texted him the next day still full of the wam fuzzies, got a cold response. It' s been 2 months since he completely just, shut off from me. I don't understand it and am coming to accept that this is just how breakups are. One side will always be left wondering what the **** just happened. The weekend was so perfect that his 180 left me even more bewildered.
So, a really good, at at the same time, really crappy ending to 2 years of on and off long distance. I guess I have no more reason to lurk on this forum Thankyou everyone for the support you gave. It helped me stay strong, even though he gave up :/
It was a great visit. It started out awkwardly (I mean, he DID dump me in a confused rambling phone call just a few days prior) but we ended up falling back into eachothers steps. He cried and apologized for the phone call, said he really did love me, especially seeing me now, that he didn't know what he was thinking. For that weekend it was perfect, and we talked about me moving in just a couple of months to his city and then we could try again. We had amazing sex that weekend. He took me on a date and we shared wine and went for walks and just, basked in eachothers company. He dropped me off at the airport, kissed me goodbye and said "I love you so much."
I got off the plane, texted him the next day still full of the wam fuzzies, got a cold response. It' s been 2 months since he completely just, shut off from me. I don't understand it and am coming to accept that this is just how breakups are. One side will always be left wondering what the **** just happened. The weekend was so perfect that his 180 left me even more bewildered.
So, a really good, at at the same time, really crappy ending to 2 years of on and off long distance. I guess I have no more reason to lurk on this forum Thankyou everyone for the support you gave. It helped me stay strong, even though he gave up :/
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