In six days I'm going to Australia for a year. One of my best friends isn't happy about it and hasn't been from the start. In fact she's been trying her best to talk me out of it. She says I can't be happy and it won't work with my SO because he cheated on me once and even though we've managed to get past it over the last 7 months, she will not let it go. I really don't need this. I've tried to give her the benefit of the doubt because she's my friend and I understand she's upset. But I have limits, and she's really pushing them.
She's tried everything to get me to change my mind, she's told me I can't trust him, I'm always going to doubt him, he clearly doesn't love me or care about my feelings. He has made a huge effort to prove himself to me and my family since then and we are getting better. But the little guard I still have and am still working on is stuck in my face every time we speak or see each other. I don't need her sitting there giving me reasons not to trust him. Especially a week before I make the biggest move of my entire life.
She's told me she won't be happy if I don't come back after my year out there, (I'm considering extending my visa for another year if I can find the right work they require etc) and she's got it all worked out, I go out there, come back, and I get a job here and stay here forever. She's even used my Grandmother, who means the world to me, against my decision to go. She said (actual words) "You might regret it if you go though, because if something happens to your Nan while you're there you're gonna think of all the time you've lost with her not being here." I really resent her for that.
I dunno, sorry, I just needed to rant I think. I don't know whether to distance myself from her contact-wise once I'm gone, I just don't know, she's just really bringing me down every time. She stayed over last night and she was pulling this crap on me all night. I came so close to throwing her out. Now I'm tired, cranky and have to get up for a train leaving London tomorrow morning at 9am to go and spend some time with my Dad and another of my best friends before I go on Sunday, which as much as I know I'm doing the right thing by going and I want to do this, is going to be even harder.
She's tried everything to get me to change my mind, she's told me I can't trust him, I'm always going to doubt him, he clearly doesn't love me or care about my feelings. He has made a huge effort to prove himself to me and my family since then and we are getting better. But the little guard I still have and am still working on is stuck in my face every time we speak or see each other. I don't need her sitting there giving me reasons not to trust him. Especially a week before I make the biggest move of my entire life.
She's told me she won't be happy if I don't come back after my year out there, (I'm considering extending my visa for another year if I can find the right work they require etc) and she's got it all worked out, I go out there, come back, and I get a job here and stay here forever. She's even used my Grandmother, who means the world to me, against my decision to go. She said (actual words) "You might regret it if you go though, because if something happens to your Nan while you're there you're gonna think of all the time you've lost with her not being here." I really resent her for that.
I dunno, sorry, I just needed to rant I think. I don't know whether to distance myself from her contact-wise once I'm gone, I just don't know, she's just really bringing me down every time. She stayed over last night and she was pulling this crap on me all night. I came so close to throwing her out. Now I'm tired, cranky and have to get up for a train leaving London tomorrow morning at 9am to go and spend some time with my Dad and another of my best friends before I go on Sunday, which as much as I know I'm doing the right thing by going and I want to do this, is going to be even harder.
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