Follow up from previous thread about meeting him for the first time..
I posted a thread on here last October (which I'm unable to link for some reason) entitled 'Advice urgently needed: Meeting my bf for the first time.'
I'm sure as many of you don't know who I am and as I haven't been active since that thread, I doubt many of you will find this thread remotely interesting, but I do need to get something off my chest. As I'm unable to link the thread, I'll give you some background details first. Cutting a long story short, I've been in touch with a guy who I met online for 2 years. We never intended to make something of our online exchange; I didn't meet him on a dating site or anything like that. But, as our correspondence progressed further (started exchanging handwritten letters and sending funky stuff through the post as well as webcamming and the usual phone calls), it became clear that we could be more than just friends- probably offline, too.
Anyway, he came to see me and spent a few days here. Both of us were understandably nervous and uncomfortable; I didn't expect anything different. But whilst he got quite comfortable with me during his stay and was rather...touchy-feely for lack of a better word, I just wasn't feeling it...at all. There was no 'chemistry'- at least not on my part; there was no denying it. For fear of appearing rude and ungrateful, I went along with it and returned his affectionate, although at times it was obvious that I was doing so reluctantly. Nonetheless, he enjoyed his stay and I enjoyed his company ('cept when he was drooling over me), but I knew this wasn't going to work out in the way intended. Of course I didn't tell him then.
When he returned to his home country, I told him that it wasn't going to work out and that it'd be unfair if I reluctantly continued to pursue our relationship and mislead him in the process. I'll be honest, I had more fun as friends as all we've done since is argue and insult.
I regret taking our online relationship further and I feel naive and stupid for doing so. How's that for an update?! (sigh)
Hope you're all well. Thanks for reading my shit story.
I'm sure as many of you don't know who I am and as I haven't been active since that thread, I doubt many of you will find this thread remotely interesting, but I do need to get something off my chest. As I'm unable to link the thread, I'll give you some background details first. Cutting a long story short, I've been in touch with a guy who I met online for 2 years. We never intended to make something of our online exchange; I didn't meet him on a dating site or anything like that. But, as our correspondence progressed further (started exchanging handwritten letters and sending funky stuff through the post as well as webcamming and the usual phone calls), it became clear that we could be more than just friends- probably offline, too.
Anyway, he came to see me and spent a few days here. Both of us were understandably nervous and uncomfortable; I didn't expect anything different. But whilst he got quite comfortable with me during his stay and was rather...touchy-feely for lack of a better word, I just wasn't feeling it...at all. There was no 'chemistry'- at least not on my part; there was no denying it. For fear of appearing rude and ungrateful, I went along with it and returned his affectionate, although at times it was obvious that I was doing so reluctantly. Nonetheless, he enjoyed his stay and I enjoyed his company ('cept when he was drooling over me), but I knew this wasn't going to work out in the way intended. Of course I didn't tell him then.
When he returned to his home country, I told him that it wasn't going to work out and that it'd be unfair if I reluctantly continued to pursue our relationship and mislead him in the process. I'll be honest, I had more fun as friends as all we've done since is argue and insult.
I regret taking our online relationship further and I feel naive and stupid for doing so. How's that for an update?! (sigh)
Hope you're all well. Thanks for reading my shit story.
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