and I am so nervous...and excited..and impatient ..and a whole bunch of other things. But it's finally, FINALLY happening...
weirdest thoughts we've had:
mine: I'm quite embarassed by this, but here goes, I was brushing my teeth before bed after talking to him and looked over at the stack of toilet paper and realized he'll be using this same set which I have now. And that's when it hit me that it's actually happening really soon.
his: noticed his yoghurt will expire on the 5th, and by then we'll already be together.
I have been an emotional mess lately...we've been fighting a lot, mainly because of me .. I went into panick mode and decided this won't work so that it won't be such a harsh blow if it doesn't. Nothing in my life right now seems to be going okay.. and it's nerve wrecking because I am also very close to things taking a turn and going great. So I am trying really hard to deal with everything.
Took a long look at myself in the mirror after the shower this morning. Got depressed haha... I am really nervous and insecure, and if this were more casual I'd probably be able to feel more relaxed, but this matters. And I feel like I am not good enough, or that he should be with someone who is better and looks better ( sorry guys, this is a bit depressing... but I am sort of trying to let this out somehow )
Our plan is: meet in "neutral territory", a city neither one of us has explored, spend some time there, explore it together and see if we could work. So we have an apartment booked for a few days in Copenhagen. We don't have any major plans .. other than spend time with eachother, get to know eachother, enjoy the city while doing that
If things go well, we come back to my place and he moves in until summer. Next: Vienna together for some time, Undecided location for a week .. and after that Berlin together for a month ( where we found this tiny tiny but really cute apartment which I am kind of excited about ) ...
I am looking forward so much to all of this, but I am also aware it might not happen .. we might not click in person.. I might spend the summer depressed while eating chocolates and just being a breakup cliche
I am however going crazy in the meantime, with stuff I have to do as well as this and getting ready...
How did you guys prepare yourselves? Things I should consider ( other than a camera )? Things I should pack? How do I stop myself from freaking out?? How did you guys prepare for the possibility it might not work in person and that there might be no chemistry? How do I build some confidence in 2 weeks?
first time Do's and Don'ts?
Ah.. we're meeting on his Bday... I have no clue what to buy and am seriously short on cash.
P.S. 1: I didn't know whether to make this a post or a blog ..I've actually been looking forward for my turn to come to write one of these and I finally can mwahaha mwahahaha (dunno why, but I felt like some evil laughter is in order )
P.S. 2: I am paranoid that he'll find this site and figure out i'm writing all of this haha...*
weirdest thoughts we've had:
mine: I'm quite embarassed by this, but here goes, I was brushing my teeth before bed after talking to him and looked over at the stack of toilet paper and realized he'll be using this same set which I have now. And that's when it hit me that it's actually happening really soon.
his: noticed his yoghurt will expire on the 5th, and by then we'll already be together.
I have been an emotional mess lately...we've been fighting a lot, mainly because of me .. I went into panick mode and decided this won't work so that it won't be such a harsh blow if it doesn't. Nothing in my life right now seems to be going okay.. and it's nerve wrecking because I am also very close to things taking a turn and going great. So I am trying really hard to deal with everything.
Took a long look at myself in the mirror after the shower this morning. Got depressed haha... I am really nervous and insecure, and if this were more casual I'd probably be able to feel more relaxed, but this matters. And I feel like I am not good enough, or that he should be with someone who is better and looks better ( sorry guys, this is a bit depressing... but I am sort of trying to let this out somehow )
Our plan is: meet in "neutral territory", a city neither one of us has explored, spend some time there, explore it together and see if we could work. So we have an apartment booked for a few days in Copenhagen. We don't have any major plans .. other than spend time with eachother, get to know eachother, enjoy the city while doing that
If things go well, we come back to my place and he moves in until summer. Next: Vienna together for some time, Undecided location for a week .. and after that Berlin together for a month ( where we found this tiny tiny but really cute apartment which I am kind of excited about ) ...
I am looking forward so much to all of this, but I am also aware it might not happen .. we might not click in person.. I might spend the summer depressed while eating chocolates and just being a breakup cliche
I am however going crazy in the meantime, with stuff I have to do as well as this and getting ready...
How did you guys prepare yourselves? Things I should consider ( other than a camera )? Things I should pack? How do I stop myself from freaking out?? How did you guys prepare for the possibility it might not work in person and that there might be no chemistry? How do I build some confidence in 2 weeks?
first time Do's and Don'ts?
Ah.. we're meeting on his Bday... I have no clue what to buy and am seriously short on cash.
P.S. 1: I didn't know whether to make this a post or a blog ..I've actually been looking forward for my turn to come to write one of these and I finally can mwahaha mwahahaha (dunno why, but I felt like some evil laughter is in order )
P.S. 2: I am paranoid that he'll find this site and figure out i'm writing all of this haha...*
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