tears and feelings of lonliness

[Karringtyn]

Thank you all for your support...can I just say I LOVE this site??!! Just knowing others understand!!!

[Swederica]

I feel so stupid that when he called back to say that he loved me yet again...I was crying....ugh...There is a part of me...deep down that is so afraid that my emotions are going to drive him away...slaps myself...I am overthinking and overanalyzing everything tonight..

I was fearing that too.
There was a time a couple of months ago when i cried everyday and the few times i got to IM with my SO all i talked about was how much i missed her and all i did all days was walking around and crying for her.
Fortunately that eventually led to me taking action.
But i was still scared that she would get enough and just leave me.
Don't worry. Your emotions won't drive him away. He loves you and he will do so no matter what

[Karringtyn]

Awww thanks.

I am not sure why I am missing him soo badly this time...more than EVER. Could it be that the "closing of the distance" is sooo close??!! I broke down last night on the phone and cried and cried...and let me tell you it was GOOD for us. I didn't think we could bond more...but we did...

[P1nkL3m0n4d3]

I know just how you feel =\ *comfort* I get like that maybe....once every other week where I just have a meltdown and cry sometimes even more often.... Its so difficult with working all the time and being tired and stressed because you can't see them. Usually I'll be talking to him fine for a while and then if one of us has to go even if its only for a few minutes, I just start crying.... something about saying goodbye...

[Karringtyn]

It's funny (well not funny haha but you know..)...last night he asked me how my night was....and I said "ok"...and he said..."just ok?" and it made me think...I am in a funk...ok is not something I say and he knows this...I am a very positive person...very happy go lucky and I just miss him so terribly...I work full time...have three kids...have plenty that I am out there doing....but my heart is so sad as I am ready for our lives to begin together...side by side....just have to sell that house....

[Silviar]

It's funny (well not funny haha but you know..)...last night he asked me how my night was....and I said "ok"...and he said..."just ok?" and it made me think...I am in a funk...ok is not something I say and he knows this...I am a very positive person...very happy go lucky and I just miss him so terribly...I work full time...have three kids...have plenty that I am out there doing....but my heart is so sad as I am ready for our lives to begin together...side by side....just have to sell that house....

Hey, I feel you. I have a full life, and this month I've had such a huge funk. I don't think my heart will be eased until I've got my love's travel details sorted. I know I'm lucky we were able to afford this trip, otherwise we would have gone 9 months without a trip... and I have to find a way to end the distance, for both of our's sake. *sigh*

[nicole]

^^ I feel you on the funk thing. The thing with me is, school doesn't start till the end of September, so until then, I have nothing to do but sit and think about what I'd be doing with my SO at that moment =/ and sometimes I can be talking completely fine with him on skype, and then just get hit by a wave of loneliness and start crying =( It's just hard when you have all these plans, they are so close, and yet there's nothing you can do but wait and be patient. Some days you just don't want to wait any more, and you want it NOW, but the waiting and the pain you feel is what makes you know this is real. I know I'd be seriously concerned if the loneliness and missing him went away

[Caitlin2009]

no shame in letting your SO hearing you cry, ive done it many times over the phone and in person with her and she's always there to comfort me and i do the same when shes upset, i've been crying non stop since Denise left to go back home to Scotland(feel a little better now that ive talked to her on the phone for a few hours today) it sucks being so far away from the one you are meant to be with the rest of your life but at some point you eventually will be under one roof together and it will be all worth it in the end

[sarahmarie]

Reading about all of your crying has started to make me cry. There are sometimes when he slips out of my mind for an hour or so and all the pain and sadness is gone. But then when I remember again how much I miss him I become so sad. I hate the feeling of missing him so much. I have cried on the phone with him before, but when I do he gets all quiet and awkward. I am wondering if its because he is really sad too or just doesn't know how to handle the emotions I am expressing. Help?

[jjbabixo]

I recently just experienced my first crying episode that I allowed my SO to witness and it really did bring us so much closer together in the end. He got pretty emotional himself which allowed me to feel like I wasnt all alone with these emotions. I feel like it hits you hardest after youve been so busy then finally have a minute of downtime because you really get to thinking about how long its been since youve had a in depth conversation with your SO or laughed together or shared more about your day then 'showering going to work going to bed'. its tough but we all go through it an absolutely nothing to ever feel ashamed about. My SO says he likes how emotional i am (sometimes) because it reminds him that I miss him and want him here and am not as independent as I try to put off...it makes him still feel needed. Hope youre feeling better!

[Karringtyn]

Reading about all of your crying has started to make me cry. There are sometimes when he slips out of my mind for an hour or so and all the pain and sadness is gone. But then when I remember again how much I miss him I become so sad. I hate the feeling of missing him so much. I have cried on the phone with him before, but when I do he gets all quiet and awkward. I am wondering if its because he is really sad too or just doesn't know how to handle the emotions I am expressing. Help?

I can only speak for my SO...but sometimes he gets quiet when i get in my emotional moods..and I know it's because he has no clue what to say or do and has told me he feels powerless...he is a fixer and he can't fix my emotions...