Hi, I'm 23, started dating this girl who I have honestly wanted to be with for a while. We were friends for a while before hand and I don't know I fell really hard and fast for her. She's 21 and a senior in college. We started dating towards the end of summer and it was basically like we started dating one night, then she was gone for a week, then she was back for a week then I was gone for a week then I was home for a night and she left the next day for college. We try to see each other every couple of weeks, but you know I don't want to be overbearing and I want her to enjoy herself for her senior year, but me personally, I'm ready for the next step. I'm kind of done with the college life style and am ready for her and I to at least be in the same area where we can see each other when we want instead of when we can. She's having a tough time too, but here's where my issue comes in...
I have OCD. I'm not talking "wash my hands a million times OCD" I'm talking intrusive thoughts, constant "what ifs" and scary things like that. So I have come up with crazy scenarios in my head of ways things would end between us and that scares me a lot. She knows that I have OCD and have had a history of anxiety and has been very supportive of me, but it's just been really hard. A lot harder than I think it should be. I've never gotten like this because of a relationship before. I just miss her a lot and when I'm with her I usually progressively feel better, but then I have to leave and that sucks.
I've made up crazy crazy scenarios in my head and for a while thought I was going insane, but have (from the help of talking with therapists and others) realized the core of the problem. I'm having a difficulty with the distance and am trying to be perfect. The relationship is an unknown and I guess I'd rather worry about things I know I can control rather than that (even though those things cause me great mental anguish). I know I know medicine and/or therapy will help, but I'm just wondering if any one else has ever gone through something like this.
I have OCD. I'm not talking "wash my hands a million times OCD" I'm talking intrusive thoughts, constant "what ifs" and scary things like that. So I have come up with crazy scenarios in my head of ways things would end between us and that scares me a lot. She knows that I have OCD and have had a history of anxiety and has been very supportive of me, but it's just been really hard. A lot harder than I think it should be. I've never gotten like this because of a relationship before. I just miss her a lot and when I'm with her I usually progressively feel better, but then I have to leave and that sucks.
I've made up crazy crazy scenarios in my head and for a while thought I was going insane, but have (from the help of talking with therapists and others) realized the core of the problem. I'm having a difficulty with the distance and am trying to be perfect. The relationship is an unknown and I guess I'd rather worry about things I know I can control rather than that (even though those things cause me great mental anguish). I know I know medicine and/or therapy will help, but I'm just wondering if any one else has ever gone through something like this.
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