This is my first post here and I apologize for it being so long but here it goes.
Me and my boyfriend met in a game (don't laugh) two years ago and hit it off like you wouldn't believe. He lives in LA and I live in Arizona over by Phoenix so it's a bit of a distance but still seems like a world away. Over time we fell more for each other and eventually added in skype (voice only) and sending pictures of each other. Then on our two year anniversary he finally bought a webcam so I could see him smile and actually see him tell me that he loves me. Now about a week ago we finally arranged for us to be together for the first time ever, he was to fly in the night of Valentine's Day (the 14th) and leave the afternoon of President's Day (the 17th). I remember when I first saw him walk off the plane my heart skipped a beat, I couldn't believe I could finally be with my baby. Right when he wasn't looking I tackled him and he swung me around. The next three days were the most amazing days of my life, it was like being in heaven. I got to fall asleep in his arms, wake up to his beautiful face, hold his hand everywhere we went together. Had a lot of firsts that weekend too which made it even more beautiful. So Monday rolled around and I broke because I knew what was coming and that he was going to have to leave me again for who knows how long. After hours of me crying and him tearing up trying to calm me down, he walked out my door to get on the shuttle to get to the airport. After he walked out I broke down so bad my mom had to run to catch me before I fell crying hysterically. 30 minutes later I get a text from him saying that he made it to the airport and that he already started to miss me. Then he proceeded to tell me that when he gets on the plane he doesn't know if he'll handle it knowing he's getting farther away from me. Now here I am a day later and everything is still making me cry. I miss him so bad my heart hurts and I don't know what to do to make the pain stop. Me and him text each other all day and we spend a few hours together on the game we play at night but it's not the same anymore. I can't sleep anymore knowing he wont be there when I wake up and when I do sleep all I do is have nightmares of being alone in a desolate world that's falling apart and being overran by the earth. He told me today that he's been tearing up all day because things will happen that remind him of me.
I just don't know what to do to ease the pain a little. I have no idea when the next time we'll get to be together so that's probably part of the pain. Before he left he gave me his handkerchief that smelled heavily like him as well as the cologne that he wears to try and help, and I did the very same for him. So my question is, is this a bit much or is it what usually happens in long distance relationships and what can I do to make it a little easier for me to be okay.
~Anna
Me and my boyfriend met in a game (don't laugh) two years ago and hit it off like you wouldn't believe. He lives in LA and I live in Arizona over by Phoenix so it's a bit of a distance but still seems like a world away. Over time we fell more for each other and eventually added in skype (voice only) and sending pictures of each other. Then on our two year anniversary he finally bought a webcam so I could see him smile and actually see him tell me that he loves me. Now about a week ago we finally arranged for us to be together for the first time ever, he was to fly in the night of Valentine's Day (the 14th) and leave the afternoon of President's Day (the 17th). I remember when I first saw him walk off the plane my heart skipped a beat, I couldn't believe I could finally be with my baby. Right when he wasn't looking I tackled him and he swung me around. The next three days were the most amazing days of my life, it was like being in heaven. I got to fall asleep in his arms, wake up to his beautiful face, hold his hand everywhere we went together. Had a lot of firsts that weekend too which made it even more beautiful. So Monday rolled around and I broke because I knew what was coming and that he was going to have to leave me again for who knows how long. After hours of me crying and him tearing up trying to calm me down, he walked out my door to get on the shuttle to get to the airport. After he walked out I broke down so bad my mom had to run to catch me before I fell crying hysterically. 30 minutes later I get a text from him saying that he made it to the airport and that he already started to miss me. Then he proceeded to tell me that when he gets on the plane he doesn't know if he'll handle it knowing he's getting farther away from me. Now here I am a day later and everything is still making me cry. I miss him so bad my heart hurts and I don't know what to do to make the pain stop. Me and him text each other all day and we spend a few hours together on the game we play at night but it's not the same anymore. I can't sleep anymore knowing he wont be there when I wake up and when I do sleep all I do is have nightmares of being alone in a desolate world that's falling apart and being overran by the earth. He told me today that he's been tearing up all day because things will happen that remind him of me.
I just don't know what to do to ease the pain a little. I have no idea when the next time we'll get to be together so that's probably part of the pain. Before he left he gave me his handkerchief that smelled heavily like him as well as the cologne that he wears to try and help, and I did the very same for him. So my question is, is this a bit much or is it what usually happens in long distance relationships and what can I do to make it a little easier for me to be okay.
~Anna
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