I haven't gotten any contact from him and I'm worried sick
So me and by bf have been in our ldr for 2 months now--he's in Taiwan, and I'm in the States. His school started a month before mine, and it's a lot more rigorous there than it is here; he gets home every night at about 10-11 pm, and has to wake up the next morning at a bit past 6. While I was still on my summer vacation, we were able to talk for about 30 minutes each day when he got back.
The last time I talked to him--or got any contact from him, for that matter--was 2 weeks ago. That morning (his night--there's a 12 hour time difference), he was telling me how stressed out he was and how unhappy he was--school is so difficult and stressful there, and because of that he can never go out with any of his friends. I felt so horrible because I couldn't cheer him up--and that was the last time I've spoken with him.
I got online the next day and waited for him all morning, but he never showed up. He hasn't responded to anything I've sent to him on Facebook, Livejournal (where we have our own blog--although since he's not used to the English keyboard and English is still hard for him, he said he wouldn't be able to write in it very much or read mine if they're long entries), but there's still no reply. He promised that on the weekends (Saturdays, although we never figured out an exact time. I thought we'd be doing that the morning he never showed up), but I waited several hours, both morning and night, and he still never showed up on Skype or sent me anything on Facebook or anything.
This past Monday, I sent him a letter, saying what I'd been wanting to tell him the past 2 weeks, and really stressing that I wanted him to somehow contact me to assure me he's okay--even if it's just a 5 minute phone call early in the morning. It should have arrived either today (Fri.) or tomorrow.
The worst thing is, I have no other ways of contacting him. I don't have his phone number--my family doesn't have a long-distance plan, so I hadn't gotten it yet. The only way I could get it now is asking his host-parents from last year--I still have their phone number, but they have no idea who I am--we kept our relationship a secret while he was here. And unless it's an extreme emergency, my parents won't be too happy that I'm calling long-distance. I'm actually not even sure if they know we're still dating--they're not very supportive, in any case. The only other way is through contacting his sister through Facebook, though I've never actually spoken with her, or any of the rest of his family, for that matter.
And I'm so afraid that something's happened to him. If he gets put in the hospital, will anyone tell me? ....or if something even worse happens? What if he happens to be in the wrong place at the wrong time where a freak accident happens? Or what if....since the last time I talked to him, he was so depressed...he killed himself?
I know all of this sounds really extreme, and I really doubt the suicide idea, but it could happen. Anything could have happened.
And if he's just busy, why can't he somehow contact me? He told me that sometime in August his school is going to be on a 1 week vacation, and it hadn't happened before I last saw him--and it's the end of August now, so it must've happened last week or so. So why, if he was so free, couldn't he have contacted me then?
I am just so worried. I have to know. I'm deciding that if 2 more weeks pass by and I don't get any contact from him, I'm adopting more extreme measures--like calling his host parents or sending a message to his sister, because it takes about 1 week for a letter to arrive, and if I do any of those other measures while a letter's on its way or something, I'd really feel like I'm just overreacting and feel really stupid.
Or do you think I should just send him another letter by that time? But then I'd have to wait even more weeks...I'm so confused at what I should do.
And for those of you who read all this, I really do appreciate it. I know it's so long, but I just have to say all this. I'm so scared of what could've and what could happen in a week.
The last time I talked to him--or got any contact from him, for that matter--was 2 weeks ago. That morning (his night--there's a 12 hour time difference), he was telling me how stressed out he was and how unhappy he was--school is so difficult and stressful there, and because of that he can never go out with any of his friends. I felt so horrible because I couldn't cheer him up--and that was the last time I've spoken with him.
I got online the next day and waited for him all morning, but he never showed up. He hasn't responded to anything I've sent to him on Facebook, Livejournal (where we have our own blog--although since he's not used to the English keyboard and English is still hard for him, he said he wouldn't be able to write in it very much or read mine if they're long entries), but there's still no reply. He promised that on the weekends (Saturdays, although we never figured out an exact time. I thought we'd be doing that the morning he never showed up), but I waited several hours, both morning and night, and he still never showed up on Skype or sent me anything on Facebook or anything.
This past Monday, I sent him a letter, saying what I'd been wanting to tell him the past 2 weeks, and really stressing that I wanted him to somehow contact me to assure me he's okay--even if it's just a 5 minute phone call early in the morning. It should have arrived either today (Fri.) or tomorrow.
The worst thing is, I have no other ways of contacting him. I don't have his phone number--my family doesn't have a long-distance plan, so I hadn't gotten it yet. The only way I could get it now is asking his host-parents from last year--I still have their phone number, but they have no idea who I am--we kept our relationship a secret while he was here. And unless it's an extreme emergency, my parents won't be too happy that I'm calling long-distance. I'm actually not even sure if they know we're still dating--they're not very supportive, in any case. The only other way is through contacting his sister through Facebook, though I've never actually spoken with her, or any of the rest of his family, for that matter.
And I'm so afraid that something's happened to him. If he gets put in the hospital, will anyone tell me? ....or if something even worse happens? What if he happens to be in the wrong place at the wrong time where a freak accident happens? Or what if....since the last time I talked to him, he was so depressed...he killed himself?
I know all of this sounds really extreme, and I really doubt the suicide idea, but it could happen. Anything could have happened.
And if he's just busy, why can't he somehow contact me? He told me that sometime in August his school is going to be on a 1 week vacation, and it hadn't happened before I last saw him--and it's the end of August now, so it must've happened last week or so. So why, if he was so free, couldn't he have contacted me then?
I am just so worried. I have to know. I'm deciding that if 2 more weeks pass by and I don't get any contact from him, I'm adopting more extreme measures--like calling his host parents or sending a message to his sister, because it takes about 1 week for a letter to arrive, and if I do any of those other measures while a letter's on its way or something, I'd really feel like I'm just overreacting and feel really stupid.
Or do you think I should just send him another letter by that time? But then I'd have to wait even more weeks...I'm so confused at what I should do.
And for those of you who read all this, I really do appreciate it. I know it's so long, but I just have to say all this. I'm so scared of what could've and what could happen in a week.
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