My earlier post and till now, everything related with FAMILY. I got fade up. No matter how it is, they won't give me any chance anymore ever since i break their trust. It's like NO second chance. Okay fine. That's the reason why she leave me.
I understand her feeling towards me and i do understand that her position right now where she need to face her mother every day. When we re online call while her mother is at home, she'll hide somewhere or just stay at room. She'll quite when her mother is beside her.
I don't know how long it's gonna be like this. And lately we re so close and i don't even wanna think IF live without her. I have been trying to keep a distance and make a gap but ain't working. She'll notice and we'll end up with argument. In fact I have been tell her that both us need a space otherwise we just keep hurting each other with the argument. BUT saying this made her more mad at me and she will yelled at me. And she had this migrain and difficult to breath. Lately It's often happened when we had a fighting. I know this itsn't good and so i will just follow what she said.
Next week, she'll flew to Frankfurt for business trip. Basically, we won't talk for 10 days. I'll be missing her terribly.
As we won't have a chance to talk, texting while she's there... I was thinking maybe this is the start to make my mind and my self free from her. It might be difficult but i couldn't bear something which is unsure.
Maybe she'll be hurting, idk.
I understand her feeling towards me and i do understand that her position right now where she need to face her mother every day. When we re online call while her mother is at home, she'll hide somewhere or just stay at room. She'll quite when her mother is beside her.
I don't know how long it's gonna be like this. And lately we re so close and i don't even wanna think IF live without her. I have been trying to keep a distance and make a gap but ain't working. She'll notice and we'll end up with argument. In fact I have been tell her that both us need a space otherwise we just keep hurting each other with the argument. BUT saying this made her more mad at me and she will yelled at me. And she had this migrain and difficult to breath. Lately It's often happened when we had a fighting. I know this itsn't good and so i will just follow what she said.
Next week, she'll flew to Frankfurt for business trip. Basically, we won't talk for 10 days. I'll be missing her terribly.
As we won't have a chance to talk, texting while she's there... I was thinking maybe this is the start to make my mind and my self free from her. It might be difficult but i couldn't bear something which is unsure.
Maybe she'll be hurting, idk.
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