Okay hi guys. Ive been on this site for a while but not as active.
There has been a lot of things going on in my life which have been stressing me out a lot.
I've suffered from post traumatic disorder from an event that happened in my life. I was depressed for a while.
Anyways, my SO or whatever he stands as now has been very... Difficult?
Okay so I have had times where I felt suicidal and he was there for me.
We met in October and he's been with me since but recently he's been distancing himself telling me that I need time to focus on myself and that I shouldn't worry about relationships. He thinks I'm not ready to be in one yet or anywhere close to it.
It's really bothering me because I've tried really hard to get better and I've improved a lot within myself, learning how to cope with my emotions and catching up on college work.two weeks ago we were on a "break" and when we did talk it just strained me out. He'd be so emotionless and didn't show his caring/emotional side. I feel like he's not feeling as much pain as I am.
He keeps telling me he knew he shouldn't have gotten in a relationship with me but he was selfish.
He even called me selfish for wanting everything when I wasn't ready.
Surely you know when you're ready for something? Or when love happens it just does, you can't control it. I don't know what my so thinks my feelings are made of. I can't lock them away whenever he wants and get it out when he wants. A week ago he said a song reminded me of him and it was called need you now by lady antebellum. It was an emotional song for me because I imagined his emotions through it but the way he is with me and the sides he's showing me says the complete opposite. I've tried being understanding but the more I do, the more distant we get? If that makes any sense.
I just don't know what to do. It's been upsetting me a lot and I can't seem to talk about friends with this.
Thank you all for reading and if you can give me your perspective it will help a lot.
There has been a lot of things going on in my life which have been stressing me out a lot.
I've suffered from post traumatic disorder from an event that happened in my life. I was depressed for a while.
Anyways, my SO or whatever he stands as now has been very... Difficult?
Okay so I have had times where I felt suicidal and he was there for me.
We met in October and he's been with me since but recently he's been distancing himself telling me that I need time to focus on myself and that I shouldn't worry about relationships. He thinks I'm not ready to be in one yet or anywhere close to it.
It's really bothering me because I've tried really hard to get better and I've improved a lot within myself, learning how to cope with my emotions and catching up on college work.two weeks ago we were on a "break" and when we did talk it just strained me out. He'd be so emotionless and didn't show his caring/emotional side. I feel like he's not feeling as much pain as I am.
He keeps telling me he knew he shouldn't have gotten in a relationship with me but he was selfish.
He even called me selfish for wanting everything when I wasn't ready.
Surely you know when you're ready for something? Or when love happens it just does, you can't control it. I don't know what my so thinks my feelings are made of. I can't lock them away whenever he wants and get it out when he wants. A week ago he said a song reminded me of him and it was called need you now by lady antebellum. It was an emotional song for me because I imagined his emotions through it but the way he is with me and the sides he's showing me says the complete opposite. I've tried being understanding but the more I do, the more distant we get? If that makes any sense.
I just don't know what to do. It's been upsetting me a lot and I can't seem to talk about friends with this.
Thank you all for reading and if you can give me your perspective it will help a lot.
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