As some of you know I had a thread 2 months ago, about how my ex.girlfriend left me confused and hopeless.
(https://members.lovingfromadistance....tely-clueless)
it's been almost 3 months since it happened, and I'm still stuck blaming myself, feeling confused and worthless. I have had good days, however the bad days take over the good ones. I have been taking this breakup so terrible, it's hit my past and somehow I've crawled back into depression again. There has been two situations where I had to get my skin stitched up from Self-harming (one of them was with intentions to bleed to death) Although I'm attending counseling/CBT sessions every week I feel like my depression, anxiety and self-harm is taking over my life again. I don't know what to do, it's like i have this voice in my head that keeps telling me "you're worthless let's disappear" over and over.
I have been trying to keep myself distracted as some of y'all said that in my last thread, college work has been that distraction but it seems to not work anymore and it's overwhelming.
anyhow, I'm back here again. Looking for any advice , any help . the ex.girlfriend seems to be happy without me since day one after she ended it. heck, on her twitter she posted up a snapchat photo of some guy and she wrote "ilysm" in the tweet. it totally feels like she used me for the full 2years 5months .
I' m not sure why i'm posting here, i guess i am starting to feel alone.
(https://members.lovingfromadistance....tely-clueless)
it's been almost 3 months since it happened, and I'm still stuck blaming myself, feeling confused and worthless. I have had good days, however the bad days take over the good ones. I have been taking this breakup so terrible, it's hit my past and somehow I've crawled back into depression again. There has been two situations where I had to get my skin stitched up from Self-harming (one of them was with intentions to bleed to death) Although I'm attending counseling/CBT sessions every week I feel like my depression, anxiety and self-harm is taking over my life again. I don't know what to do, it's like i have this voice in my head that keeps telling me "you're worthless let's disappear" over and over.
I have been trying to keep myself distracted as some of y'all said that in my last thread, college work has been that distraction but it seems to not work anymore and it's overwhelming.
anyhow, I'm back here again. Looking for any advice , any help . the ex.girlfriend seems to be happy without me since day one after she ended it. heck, on her twitter she posted up a snapchat photo of some guy and she wrote "ilysm" in the tweet. it totally feels like she used me for the full 2years 5months .
I' m not sure why i'm posting here, i guess i am starting to feel alone.
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