Hello,
I am sorry if my English is not good it is not my first language
It is very hard for me to come to here with this but I am having very confusing thoughts about my relationship at the moment.
For the background - I have met my SO about a year ago at the same college as myself and ever since started dating and never looked backwards. Since September she has started studying in the Antofagasta for one year (it is far away from university Santiago.)
I always look so much forward to her visits or when I can visit to her and I cannot think of any girl I could have a possibly better relationship with.
My problem which I'm sure you'll say if very selfish ( and I know this it's true) is my fear of the shortness of our lives and that I feel like my only one time to be young and able to have crazy experiences is now. I know that I am happiest with her but I also think that I would love to try a lot of different things whilst I have the ability. From my full honesty I love her so much but I have not imagined our lives being together for a lots of years in the future. I even think my worrying would be the same if she was not far away from me.
I know this is very cruel of me to say but I must admit my feelings. I sometimes think that if she broke up with me tomorrow I would see the good of that more than the bad of that.
What do you think about this.
Thank you
Alvaro
I am sorry if my English is not good it is not my first language
It is very hard for me to come to here with this but I am having very confusing thoughts about my relationship at the moment.
For the background - I have met my SO about a year ago at the same college as myself and ever since started dating and never looked backwards. Since September she has started studying in the Antofagasta for one year (it is far away from university Santiago.)
I always look so much forward to her visits or when I can visit to her and I cannot think of any girl I could have a possibly better relationship with.
My problem which I'm sure you'll say if very selfish ( and I know this it's true) is my fear of the shortness of our lives and that I feel like my only one time to be young and able to have crazy experiences is now. I know that I am happiest with her but I also think that I would love to try a lot of different things whilst I have the ability. From my full honesty I love her so much but I have not imagined our lives being together for a lots of years in the future. I even think my worrying would be the same if she was not far away from me.
I know this is very cruel of me to say but I must admit my feelings. I sometimes think that if she broke up with me tomorrow I would see the good of that more than the bad of that.
What do you think about this.
Thank you
Alvaro
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