Hey all,
I don't really post much, so a little bit about me. I am a grad student in LA and my boyfriend is in Portland finishing up his undergrad. We have been together and LD for 15 months now, and usually it's never been an issue. This last trip during new years, I went through his phone and saw a text message I did not want to see. Given, I shouldn't have looked through his phone but I was also feeling insecure about myself and wanted some reassurance I guess that I wouldn't find anything. Well, I did. He had sent a text to his best friend a few weeks prior to my arrival, drunk might I add, asking if he should stay with me or try with this other girl. Reading this of course, I was devastated and confronted him. He said it was nothing, he doesn't know why he was thinking of her (apparently they used to talk before we met), and blah blah blah. It was hard, and still is hard, thinking he doesn't want to be with me, although he keeps reassuring me he does. I decided to give him another chance, a chance to mend the trust and rebuild our relationship and what not. Its a week and a half later and I'm not feeling loved or reassured. Our loving text messages have slowed down and I don't feel wanted emotionally or physically. I'm not sure if this is because of what has happened or because we are moving out of the "honeymoon" phase. I'm not sure. He swears he loves me, and sees a future with me, and wants to marry me and all of that. But now I have a hard time believing him when he says those things, because he said them before and still was asking if he should be with me or another girl. And now that I don't feel as loved or wanted, it's all getting worse. I'm not sure how to get him to put more effort in, or else this won't work. I tell him I don't feel loved or wanted and he tells me otherwise. But I don't need him to tell me, I need him to show me. And he hasn't. I don't really know what to do. Given, it has only been over a week since this all happened but I feel like he should be trying harder than ever right now, then not trying at all. He's coming to visit this weekend, so I'm curious to see how that goes.
Any words of wisdom on what to do?
I don't really post much, so a little bit about me. I am a grad student in LA and my boyfriend is in Portland finishing up his undergrad. We have been together and LD for 15 months now, and usually it's never been an issue. This last trip during new years, I went through his phone and saw a text message I did not want to see. Given, I shouldn't have looked through his phone but I was also feeling insecure about myself and wanted some reassurance I guess that I wouldn't find anything. Well, I did. He had sent a text to his best friend a few weeks prior to my arrival, drunk might I add, asking if he should stay with me or try with this other girl. Reading this of course, I was devastated and confronted him. He said it was nothing, he doesn't know why he was thinking of her (apparently they used to talk before we met), and blah blah blah. It was hard, and still is hard, thinking he doesn't want to be with me, although he keeps reassuring me he does. I decided to give him another chance, a chance to mend the trust and rebuild our relationship and what not. Its a week and a half later and I'm not feeling loved or reassured. Our loving text messages have slowed down and I don't feel wanted emotionally or physically. I'm not sure if this is because of what has happened or because we are moving out of the "honeymoon" phase. I'm not sure. He swears he loves me, and sees a future with me, and wants to marry me and all of that. But now I have a hard time believing him when he says those things, because he said them before and still was asking if he should be with me or another girl. And now that I don't feel as loved or wanted, it's all getting worse. I'm not sure how to get him to put more effort in, or else this won't work. I tell him I don't feel loved or wanted and he tells me otherwise. But I don't need him to tell me, I need him to show me. And he hasn't. I don't really know what to do. Given, it has only been over a week since this all happened but I feel like he should be trying harder than ever right now, then not trying at all. He's coming to visit this weekend, so I'm curious to see how that goes.
Any words of wisdom on what to do?
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