And the other person waits a day to bring it up... Makes me feel worse somehow!! My SO asked me to add something to the discussion he was trying to start via his FB status and the comments there. So I did, but went for a short version of what we'd sort of been talking about. This upset him....from the conversation tonight, made (makes?) him wonder if I "overlook" him. *sighs*
Surely, he should know better. I just am not real comfortable posting to his FB these days...but not sure how to explain that without sounding like the insecure bitch that I am. I just don't feel comfortable posting knowing his ex but now friend that I dispise can possibly read what I post. If its something that's sort of an inside thing or nothing that feels too private, then its not a problem. But an indepth convo we are having where I am explaining why I can see that people compare him to one of his favorite TV characters is not along those lines. Somehow, I don't want her (or others) to see our convos, though I am comfortable sharing copy and paste with you guys....pretty hypocritical.
I wish I had realized that he ment to post a more detailed type thing...I would of done it, just because he asked.... Makes me feel silly for being so upset over this, and a bit dumb for not catching what he was asking for *sighs*
I think this whole knowing there is (now) a likely chance he will be staying another 9 months is f'n with my head pretty bad. I think its pulling me towards depression...Yet I don't want to start a conversation that I am not sure I want to hear his side of either. From other parts of our convo, he has an offer on the table that he will take if nothing else comes up *sighs* Happy for him, but sucks to be me right now. I don't know wtf to do at this point in time and its making me a little crazy. Especially considering how hard I am working to get this whole Vday present thing done just right...Why does loving someone always seem to hurt? Gah!!!! I need a beer, a shot of tequila...something to chill me out and hopefully help me either stop obsessing or cry this all out!
Thanks for reading...I just needed to vent... I am so glad this is here and ya'll are so awesome.
Surely, he should know better. I just am not real comfortable posting to his FB these days...but not sure how to explain that without sounding like the insecure bitch that I am. I just don't feel comfortable posting knowing his ex but now friend that I dispise can possibly read what I post. If its something that's sort of an inside thing or nothing that feels too private, then its not a problem. But an indepth convo we are having where I am explaining why I can see that people compare him to one of his favorite TV characters is not along those lines. Somehow, I don't want her (or others) to see our convos, though I am comfortable sharing copy and paste with you guys....pretty hypocritical.
I wish I had realized that he ment to post a more detailed type thing...I would of done it, just because he asked.... Makes me feel silly for being so upset over this, and a bit dumb for not catching what he was asking for *sighs*
I think this whole knowing there is (now) a likely chance he will be staying another 9 months is f'n with my head pretty bad. I think its pulling me towards depression...Yet I don't want to start a conversation that I am not sure I want to hear his side of either. From other parts of our convo, he has an offer on the table that he will take if nothing else comes up *sighs* Happy for him, but sucks to be me right now. I don't know wtf to do at this point in time and its making me a little crazy. Especially considering how hard I am working to get this whole Vday present thing done just right...Why does loving someone always seem to hurt? Gah!!!! I need a beer, a shot of tequila...something to chill me out and hopefully help me either stop obsessing or cry this all out!
Thanks for reading...I just needed to vent... I am so glad this is here and ya'll are so awesome.
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