i am usually a very strong person. i have got through things in my life because i've had him there, physically or in spirit, always encouraging me. he is the most loveliest, most perfect person in the universe and yesterday my heart broke. it hurts so god damn much
we have been together 6 an a half months, and i last visited in may/june. it was the most beautiful time of my life and he felt the same way. unfortunately his parents don't condone LDR, and his mom thinks he is too young to be so serious. he agrees and says hes felt this for a while but didn'r want to hurt me. was supposed to fly over at new year and.. and..
i understand this may seem like a very emotional, typical teenager post but i
i don't know what to do anymore
i can't live with out
him
i sobbed my heart out yesterday, ran out of my office crying and got sent home. friend took me for some food and i cried even more. i'm a wreck. i'm pathetic.
he won't skype, but turned the call on and muted audio. we usually sleep together every single night, when his laptop works. it doesn't now, but.. i can't sleep without him. i begged him to. i told him i couldn't lose the commnuication
he says he wants to live and experience life but he doesn't want to breakup. he needs to.. he said he loves me so god damn much and hes never cried so much in his wohle life. everything hurts. please make the hurt stop. please somebody make it stop. he said we could be together again at some point
but i want him NOW! i LOVE him! we have been through so much together and he truly made me a better person. i have always been there for him, doted on him, loved him more than i've loved anything in this world.
i need to see him agian. i can't have things end lik ethis.
i get paid from work next friday and i'm going to fly out for a few days. even if it changes nothing, i need to see him. am i fool? perhaps so. but i love him and i cant live withouth him.
i DO have other things in my life. i have friends. i got a promotion at work. i have horses. i'm independent and never made my whole life about him
but now i realize he was my whole life and i am nothing without him, and all i feel is an incomparable sense of loss.
i'm soryr for thetypos, i can barely see the screne through my tears.
we have been together 6 an a half months, and i last visited in may/june. it was the most beautiful time of my life and he felt the same way. unfortunately his parents don't condone LDR, and his mom thinks he is too young to be so serious. he agrees and says hes felt this for a while but didn'r want to hurt me. was supposed to fly over at new year and.. and..
i understand this may seem like a very emotional, typical teenager post but i
i don't know what to do anymore
i can't live with out
him
i sobbed my heart out yesterday, ran out of my office crying and got sent home. friend took me for some food and i cried even more. i'm a wreck. i'm pathetic.
he won't skype, but turned the call on and muted audio. we usually sleep together every single night, when his laptop works. it doesn't now, but.. i can't sleep without him. i begged him to. i told him i couldn't lose the commnuication
he says he wants to live and experience life but he doesn't want to breakup. he needs to.. he said he loves me so god damn much and hes never cried so much in his wohle life. everything hurts. please make the hurt stop. please somebody make it stop. he said we could be together again at some point
but i want him NOW! i LOVE him! we have been through so much together and he truly made me a better person. i have always been there for him, doted on him, loved him more than i've loved anything in this world.
i need to see him agian. i can't have things end lik ethis.
i get paid from work next friday and i'm going to fly out for a few days. even if it changes nothing, i need to see him. am i fool? perhaps so. but i love him and i cant live withouth him.
i DO have other things in my life. i have friends. i got a promotion at work. i have horses. i'm independent and never made my whole life about him
but now i realize he was my whole life and i am nothing without him, and all i feel is an incomparable sense of loss.
i'm soryr for thetypos, i can barely see the screne through my tears.
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