It's over, at least until we figure things out. It started a few days ago, he just couldn't hold a proper conversation. He finally came clean yesterday that he just didn't feel a spark when we talked on the phone anymore. He was tired, and felt suffocated, he told me he wasn't giving me what I deserved.
We talked last night about it. Because it wasn't fair for me to get dragged along in him not wanting to talk to me, trying to make him love him as much as he loves me. We have been together for a year, and we both do love one another. I think he's my person, but he just doesn't have a clear head. So we decided it wasn't working out, he wanted it so badly to be mutual he couldn't pull the trigger. So we both eased into it.
I was supposed to go visit him in December, but I don't know now. I don't want to tell anyone, and he and I agreed to leave everything up on Facebook. He told me I'm still his best friend and he wants me in his profile.
My friends think he will think for a while and come back, he says he feels suffocated with thoughts right now. Not to expect anything, but he is hopeful it will all be better. I am so hopeful it terrifies me. I just want him, I want us.
I just want to make this work, I want so badly to make this work. I am going to give him some time with no contact to truly mule over if this is the right thing. I feel like the right thing is us. He told me he couldn't fault me, I was his perfect woman.
I am sad, lost, and hopeful. It sucks to love someone so much and to have to let them go. But I can always hope. I have so much hope.
We talked last night about it. Because it wasn't fair for me to get dragged along in him not wanting to talk to me, trying to make him love him as much as he loves me. We have been together for a year, and we both do love one another. I think he's my person, but he just doesn't have a clear head. So we decided it wasn't working out, he wanted it so badly to be mutual he couldn't pull the trigger. So we both eased into it.
I was supposed to go visit him in December, but I don't know now. I don't want to tell anyone, and he and I agreed to leave everything up on Facebook. He told me I'm still his best friend and he wants me in his profile.
My friends think he will think for a while and come back, he says he feels suffocated with thoughts right now. Not to expect anything, but he is hopeful it will all be better. I am so hopeful it terrifies me. I just want him, I want us.
I just want to make this work, I want so badly to make this work. I am going to give him some time with no contact to truly mule over if this is the right thing. I feel like the right thing is us. He told me he couldn't fault me, I was his perfect woman.
I am sad, lost, and hopeful. It sucks to love someone so much and to have to let them go. But I can always hope. I have so much hope.
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