Does Saying Goodbye Get Worse?

[pizza_heart]

Last time i visited him, two TSA agents tried to comfort me like "aww when will you see him again? you okay? can you breathe?" Apparently the whole crowd watched me crying my eyeballs out as i didn't want to let go of him. It never got easier for me, tbh, as i felt more and more attached to him with each visit.

[Secrecy]

I am definitely the more emotional one - I definitely cry. I don't necessarily sob like a maniac, but usually at least a few tears escape. It's hard for me when I am sitting on the plane ready to take off, and when it is finally in the air and I see the city below me, thinking he's down there somewhere and I'm not. That sort of thing is usually when it hits me and I have to bury my head in the side of the airplane wall and cry into it. (Which is always why I book the window seat! Hurr.) Sometimes it's just this overwhelming sense of emptiness like I left my heart down there with him, which in a way I guess I did. But I usually get over it in a day or two and get back to my normal routine. I also find it's a ton easier to deal with when I know when I'm going to see him again. Planning always makes it easier for me.

[forthelonghaul]

I'm having the same problem. I keep my cool every time, but in the hours after leaving I feel terrible. It's super conflicting because I have resonating feelings of love & happiness from the visit, but also fear/anxiety/sadness from the separation. I'm trying to learn how to keep the feeling of being loved/happy override the bad emotions, but since I live alone it's pretty hard. A glass or 2 of wine always helps other than that....well, it's how I ended up on this website.