One of the reasons of I was hesitant about getting into a relationship with my boyfriend is because I knew he wouldn't be able to be there for me all the time. I know that I accepted those terms by agreeing to do this anyway, but at the same time I, at least, expected him to keep his word and call me when he said he was going to. He didn't and last night I, honestly, really needed his support emotionally. But he didn't keep his word, so he wasn't there. In a way, though, it is not his fault because he is currently outta work and doesn't have his own phone and I'm not going to hold that against him, though, because I am in a similar situation financially and also don't own a phone. I do, however, have access to a landline and my own computer with Wifi.
Honestly, I don't know how to feel about this right now. Part of me is mad that and just wants an explanation, and the other part is just trying to be understanding. Mostly, however, I am beginning to feel really afraid about starting to rely on him. This is not my first LDR. I had my first LDR boyfriend when I was 14 and we were together for four years, but it was four years of excuses and lies. I do not want to go through again with this person. Idk how to feel or what to do.
Honestly, I don't know how to feel about this right now. Part of me is mad that and just wants an explanation, and the other part is just trying to be understanding. Mostly, however, I am beginning to feel really afraid about starting to rely on him. This is not my first LDR. I had my first LDR boyfriend when I was 14 and we were together for four years, but it was four years of excuses and lies. I do not want to go through again with this person. Idk how to feel or what to do.
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