Hi Guys (: sorry for bad english
i know having a long distance r/s isn't easy .. i bet most of the people reading the post are having A LDR .. its my 1st time having A LDR i can say for my experience that simply cant justify .. You will Miss her/Him even more after your 1st meeting up and back home to ur house thinking that you're already missing him/her alot , everyday your mind simply just kept thinking about them . Looking at your phone countless times waiting for their replies , Looking at their Profile pictures/ social network .. stalking them like you are a creed .. here's my story ..
I Have a girlfriend , she doesn't like to be on open r/s with me , i dk why but i respect her ...
she's cute , beautiful .. sexy .. . living just 1hour flight apart from me
She lives in jakarta .. i got to meet her last week , i can say that feels when you get to meet your LDR girlfriend .. your 1st kiss your 1st Hug your 1st Cuddle .. even ur 1st sexual.. okay .. i better don't get that far, sorry ;x ..
anyway .. here's my problem .. halfway on our stay at our hotel .. she show me things like a snack and ask me do you wanna try this ?With her big round dark eyes open wide like she wanna me to try .. so eventually i say yes ..
She went out told me to stay at the hotel living her phone on the hotel .. as rude as i was .. i was on her phone .. checking her whatsapp chat .. and things just went downhill then .. SHE BEEN CHEATING ON ME .. imagine u read the text of ur bf/gf with someone else .. Her latest text to him she didn't reply much .. maybe a few reply or one word then she ignore him afterwards .. then i scroll up i see .. '' LOVE YOU .. MISS YOU EVEN that guy being sexual to her (but she didn't took the bait , she only gave her answer as ''OH ,ya ?) .. everytime i scroll up the text my heart breaks down like a mirror break up to a million pieces ..the pain is unforgettable, till today i still feel hurts whenever i recall the text i read .. So i wait her to come back to the hotel .. and i confront her ..
Me : Who is this guy .. *show her the phone* ..
She : *look at me* .. *silence *...
Me : * Silence *
She : Bae .. Bae .. Bae ..
(Holding my hand , keep calling me for a whole min )
as hurt as i was i kept my composure and tell her the next thing i can think off ..
Me : do you know how hurt i was when i read the chat ? * i was about to tears off *
She : i know ..
( she ran off the hotel room , see-ing her red eyes .. just break my hearts too .. )
after awhile i go looking for her not long i found her .. she was crying alone , the face of her displayed the meant of regret. It really hurts me see-ing her like this because i really do love her .. i really do ..
without thinking much i hug her .. saying .
Me : Stop crying .. * Look at me * i love you bae but what you did really hurts me alot .. i am not angry i am just so hurt
( In my mind .. everyone deserve a 2nd chance .. maybe because i have a big heart .. i dont like to see girls cry .. i am not any nice guys too guess its just my karma ... )
Without even thinking i tell her to look at me ..
Me : Look at me .. i forgive you , bae ..
she immediately cry out loud on my shoulder like i never seen a girl cry that much before .. her tear kept dropping from her eyes to my shirt eventually wet out my whole shoulder area ..
She: i am Sorry .. * kept crying *
after her cries she felt weak and eventually fell a sick ( Heavy Headache ) as observance as i was .. i know her immune system isn't strong because she kept complaining her dizziness to me .. i even ask her if she have low blood pressure .. and she did ..
things went back to normal after all that happen that night .. maybe i scare to lose someone i love so i tend to forgive her even though i know forgiving a cheater is dangerous .. i know i am weak i felt liek a loser .. i know i cant let go .. i am sorry..
Days goes by until the last day we have to say goodbye to each other .. as much as i cant bear to leave her .. i gave her a last kiss and took off my taix .. and receive and a message later from her saying how sorry she was making such a big mistake
and hope i never regret meeting her .. which i never did .. because i love her alot .. i did enjoy my date with her even though things happen ..
NOW ... its my problem .. after that incident i felt dam insecure is not healthy i know specially when you're at LDR .. i Still trust her .. she even report to me saying she went out with a guy to watch movie and dinner and saying aleast she's telling a truth .. i know she's her friend .. i have no doubt on it .. me being Jealous ? Yes ,OF CAUSE .. days went by i really do miss her now miss her everything yet still being doubtful on her wondering if she say things are real .. i hate this feelings .. i WANT TO TRUST her .. I AM trusting her .. just that my heart telling me that i am hurt from that incident .. everytime i always asked her what she was doing and stuff .. she endure all my question from me i can felt she's quite annoyed thinking that i don't trust her .. she didn't say it out but u know im observance enough to feel it .. and now Everyday i am thinking of her . ;( Well i wish someone is with me .. i know alot people would say dump that cheater you FOOL but all i know is
loving some1 isn't hard .. everyone made mistakes .. everyone deserve a 2nd chance .. i always gave her the benefits than me ..
well .. i hope this r/s last a long long time and her being just loving me and me only .. because ..
i love you Christine i love you alot .. i wish you know how i feel ..
Wish to meet her soon .. maybe we sit out and talk about it ..
i know having a long distance r/s isn't easy .. i bet most of the people reading the post are having A LDR .. its my 1st time having A LDR i can say for my experience that simply cant justify .. You will Miss her/Him even more after your 1st meeting up and back home to ur house thinking that you're already missing him/her alot , everyday your mind simply just kept thinking about them . Looking at your phone countless times waiting for their replies , Looking at their Profile pictures/ social network .. stalking them like you are a creed .. here's my story ..
I Have a girlfriend , she doesn't like to be on open r/s with me , i dk why but i respect her ...
she's cute , beautiful .. sexy .. . living just 1hour flight apart from me
She lives in jakarta .. i got to meet her last week , i can say that feels when you get to meet your LDR girlfriend .. your 1st kiss your 1st Hug your 1st Cuddle .. even ur 1st sexual.. okay .. i better don't get that far, sorry ;x ..
anyway .. here's my problem .. halfway on our stay at our hotel .. she show me things like a snack and ask me do you wanna try this ?With her big round dark eyes open wide like she wanna me to try .. so eventually i say yes ..
She went out told me to stay at the hotel living her phone on the hotel .. as rude as i was .. i was on her phone .. checking her whatsapp chat .. and things just went downhill then .. SHE BEEN CHEATING ON ME .. imagine u read the text of ur bf/gf with someone else .. Her latest text to him she didn't reply much .. maybe a few reply or one word then she ignore him afterwards .. then i scroll up i see .. '' LOVE YOU .. MISS YOU EVEN that guy being sexual to her (but she didn't took the bait , she only gave her answer as ''OH ,ya ?) .. everytime i scroll up the text my heart breaks down like a mirror break up to a million pieces ..the pain is unforgettable, till today i still feel hurts whenever i recall the text i read .. So i wait her to come back to the hotel .. and i confront her ..
Me : Who is this guy .. *show her the phone* ..
She : *look at me* .. *silence *...
Me : * Silence *
She : Bae .. Bae .. Bae ..
(Holding my hand , keep calling me for a whole min )
as hurt as i was i kept my composure and tell her the next thing i can think off ..
Me : do you know how hurt i was when i read the chat ? * i was about to tears off *
She : i know ..
( she ran off the hotel room , see-ing her red eyes .. just break my hearts too .. )
after awhile i go looking for her not long i found her .. she was crying alone , the face of her displayed the meant of regret. It really hurts me see-ing her like this because i really do love her .. i really do ..
without thinking much i hug her .. saying .
Me : Stop crying .. * Look at me * i love you bae but what you did really hurts me alot .. i am not angry i am just so hurt
( In my mind .. everyone deserve a 2nd chance .. maybe because i have a big heart .. i dont like to see girls cry .. i am not any nice guys too guess its just my karma ... )
Without even thinking i tell her to look at me ..
Me : Look at me .. i forgive you , bae ..
she immediately cry out loud on my shoulder like i never seen a girl cry that much before .. her tear kept dropping from her eyes to my shirt eventually wet out my whole shoulder area ..
She: i am Sorry .. * kept crying *
after her cries she felt weak and eventually fell a sick ( Heavy Headache ) as observance as i was .. i know her immune system isn't strong because she kept complaining her dizziness to me .. i even ask her if she have low blood pressure .. and she did ..
things went back to normal after all that happen that night .. maybe i scare to lose someone i love so i tend to forgive her even though i know forgiving a cheater is dangerous .. i know i am weak i felt liek a loser .. i know i cant let go .. i am sorry..
Days goes by until the last day we have to say goodbye to each other .. as much as i cant bear to leave her .. i gave her a last kiss and took off my taix .. and receive and a message later from her saying how sorry she was making such a big mistake
and hope i never regret meeting her .. which i never did .. because i love her alot .. i did enjoy my date with her even though things happen ..
NOW ... its my problem .. after that incident i felt dam insecure is not healthy i know specially when you're at LDR .. i Still trust her .. she even report to me saying she went out with a guy to watch movie and dinner and saying aleast she's telling a truth .. i know she's her friend .. i have no doubt on it .. me being Jealous ? Yes ,OF CAUSE .. days went by i really do miss her now miss her everything yet still being doubtful on her wondering if she say things are real .. i hate this feelings .. i WANT TO TRUST her .. I AM trusting her .. just that my heart telling me that i am hurt from that incident .. everytime i always asked her what she was doing and stuff .. she endure all my question from me i can felt she's quite annoyed thinking that i don't trust her .. she didn't say it out but u know im observance enough to feel it .. and now Everyday i am thinking of her . ;( Well i wish someone is with me .. i know alot people would say dump that cheater you FOOL but all i know is
loving some1 isn't hard .. everyone made mistakes .. everyone deserve a 2nd chance .. i always gave her the benefits than me ..
well .. i hope this r/s last a long long time and her being just loving me and me only .. because ..
i love you Christine i love you alot .. i wish you know how i feel ..
Wish to meet her soon .. maybe we sit out and talk about it ..
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