Those of you that have read my posts will know that me and the guy I've been dating were taking a step back. He became pretty rubbish at making plans to see each other and It all started to get really frustrating.
I decided to take a step back and give him some space. At first he started to call me more. But lately he's just started to become more and more distant.
I'd just about given up on it all when he rang me last weekend and had a bit of a break down (about personal stuff that he's talked to me about before). It's the first time I've ever seen him cry. I thought he was opening up to me and we were getting closer again. But no - since then he's completely closed up again.
I've tried dabbling in online dating again to see if it's really him I wanted to be with (we were never official). But all it makes me realise is how much I miss him. I deleted my profile once I realised this, but to make it worse, his friend spotted me online. I rang him tonight to talk to him before his friend did. I told him that i still want to make it work. But he just told me I wasn't doing anything wrong and that we just can't be together whilst he is there and I am here.
I'm gutted mostly because there seems to be no reason for this not to work other than the distance. It's like he just has this barrier up and won't let it develop. I wish he could see this. I know there's nothing I can do and I know I need to respect his decision. I just can't switch off the feelings I have for him. Such a shame too because I have a long summer break coming up and was looking forward to spending some proper time with him.
Sorry for offloading x
I decided to take a step back and give him some space. At first he started to call me more. But lately he's just started to become more and more distant.
I'd just about given up on it all when he rang me last weekend and had a bit of a break down (about personal stuff that he's talked to me about before). It's the first time I've ever seen him cry. I thought he was opening up to me and we were getting closer again. But no - since then he's completely closed up again.
I've tried dabbling in online dating again to see if it's really him I wanted to be with (we were never official). But all it makes me realise is how much I miss him. I deleted my profile once I realised this, but to make it worse, his friend spotted me online. I rang him tonight to talk to him before his friend did. I told him that i still want to make it work. But he just told me I wasn't doing anything wrong and that we just can't be together whilst he is there and I am here.
I'm gutted mostly because there seems to be no reason for this not to work other than the distance. It's like he just has this barrier up and won't let it develop. I wish he could see this. I know there's nothing I can do and I know I need to respect his decision. I just can't switch off the feelings I have for him. Such a shame too because I have a long summer break coming up and was looking forward to spending some proper time with him.
Sorry for offloading x
Chin up friend, you tried your best but sometimes things just don't work out. Hope you'll be okay :3
Try not to search for answers that may not be there, sometimes things just don't work out for both people.
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