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I hope this post finds everyone well. My name is B and I am a 36 year old woman with a 9 year old and 7 year old. My ex significant other is almost 28. We dated long distance for 1.5 years. We ended because of the distance and neither of us wanting to relocate as well as the strain of my kids. It's been four months since our split and I still have feelings for him. I finally saw him after our split and I proposed a second chance. Not realizing that his unhappiness had been with my kids not treating him fairly I would have backed him up a little more but since my kids have been transitioning so much between my house, their dads, and my significant other they had no consistency. I felt for my kids but never backed him up. 20/20 hindsight I'd go back and balance the need for my kids to be respectful and the want for his understanding. During our visit on Saturday we talked, caught up and kissed. The kiss brought feelings flooding back more so than I already had. I live with the mindset to not give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about. He dwells on us too but it's not an easy situation. I will never resent him for not wanting a life of step dad figure. I just have this connection with him that runs so deep. I would never forgive myself if I didn't fight for this. So I suggested us starting out just us for awhile before kids are involved again. I know we have a connection and I'm willing to bare myself to see this through. I am complicated like layers of an onion, kids, recently divorcing from the kids dad and all the while found the love that has completed me and made me feel more than I had ever thought. I took this love for granted. I am putting it out to the universe for another chance. I put it out there and if it's meant to be it will be if not I will set this love free.
His response with the suggestion of starting again was he wanted to think about it and he wasn't saying this to make me happy but he wanted time to think with everything else he has going on. Recently this man that I hold so dear to my heart was in a motorcycle accident and he was very lucky to have only sustained minor injuries. Overlooked broken hand that required emergency surgery 3 weeks after the accident. His future and career opportunities may be compromised. So my request for rekindling may not be a first priority.
Life is too short and his accident could have taken him from me forever.
Four months of being apart and my heart still harbors feelings of love as well as that tightness of the unknown, as this next part is up to him.
Send some vibes to me and the universe that I want another chance with this man. I know there is a plan for us all but my heart won't and can't let go of him. I know what I want and I'm not afraid to go after it.
B
I hope this post finds everyone well. My name is B and I am a 36 year old woman with a 9 year old and 7 year old. My ex significant other is almost 28. We dated long distance for 1.5 years. We ended because of the distance and neither of us wanting to relocate as well as the strain of my kids. It's been four months since our split and I still have feelings for him. I finally saw him after our split and I proposed a second chance. Not realizing that his unhappiness had been with my kids not treating him fairly I would have backed him up a little more but since my kids have been transitioning so much between my house, their dads, and my significant other they had no consistency. I felt for my kids but never backed him up. 20/20 hindsight I'd go back and balance the need for my kids to be respectful and the want for his understanding. During our visit on Saturday we talked, caught up and kissed. The kiss brought feelings flooding back more so than I already had. I live with the mindset to not give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about. He dwells on us too but it's not an easy situation. I will never resent him for not wanting a life of step dad figure. I just have this connection with him that runs so deep. I would never forgive myself if I didn't fight for this. So I suggested us starting out just us for awhile before kids are involved again. I know we have a connection and I'm willing to bare myself to see this through. I am complicated like layers of an onion, kids, recently divorcing from the kids dad and all the while found the love that has completed me and made me feel more than I had ever thought. I took this love for granted. I am putting it out to the universe for another chance. I put it out there and if it's meant to be it will be if not I will set this love free.
His response with the suggestion of starting again was he wanted to think about it and he wasn't saying this to make me happy but he wanted time to think with everything else he has going on. Recently this man that I hold so dear to my heart was in a motorcycle accident and he was very lucky to have only sustained minor injuries. Overlooked broken hand that required emergency surgery 3 weeks after the accident. His future and career opportunities may be compromised. So my request for rekindling may not be a first priority.
Life is too short and his accident could have taken him from me forever.
Four months of being apart and my heart still harbors feelings of love as well as that tightness of the unknown, as this next part is up to him.
Send some vibes to me and the universe that I want another chance with this man. I know there is a plan for us all but my heart won't and can't let go of him. I know what I want and I'm not afraid to go after it.
B
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