Disclaimer: There's no TL;DR version, I'm sorry. IMO all the details are important. Also, my English ain't perfect and hope you'll get the point
First of all, hi to everyone, I'm new here and I really need your advice, because I'm just freaking out.
As for myself, I'm 23 years old guy (hope this information is enough for now, feel free to ask more if you like tho).
The story.....
So, here it goes. Last year, I managed to travel in Germany, to visit my friend (for about 3 months). We had fun, enjoyed travelling and stuff, then we created profile on social website, just getting know people around, to talk and stuff and one of them, were she, my LDR girlfriend at the moment.
So we began texting to each other, we enjoyed it a lot! We were far away like 100 km's away. After a while, we met in real. We went to cafe, cinema, and so on. We just enjoyed each other.
After few weeks, she told me that I'm really nice guy and if we're not be friends, she would date me and it kinda triggered me and avoided the question. Because, I had two relationships before (both LDR's) one for 7 years, another for 4 years (don't ask how it's possible or stuff, I'm being honest here) and after breaking up with them, I tried to commit suicide for each (and NO, I'm not proud of it). I'm just really sensitive guy, only when it's all about relationships. I'm way too much different guy to friends, random people, but in relationship, I'm seriously sensitive guy and it kinda makes me crazy.
So, after few days, I was analyzing stuff and I gave a chance, I did a step and told her to be my girlfriend and she was happy about it too, so we went in relationship since then.
After few days of texting, we met again and we went to random places each other, cuddling and stuff. After all of that, time was coming for me to leave, cause my train was going soon, so she managed go with me at train station and wait me to leave and then she would go home. I don't wanted to go yet, because I haven't done one important thing and I delayed going at train station with random reasons and when we went at train station, my train was going already, so I could not leave no more and had to wait 4 hours to next train (it was 00:00). So then, I managed to take her at home by myself, we walked together till her home, we went in and I caught a moment and kissed her and we were both really happy. It was late already, I had to leave, because she was working next day and I just left the place (by the way, that day was last day I was there and next day, I traveled back to my country, but told her that I'll be back whenever I can).
After I came to my country, things went worse and worse. She was not texting much, she was getting angry on everything I tell and she even told me that I'm overwhelming her. I went totally crazy after that, she was telling me to "if you don't like that, we should break up" and stuff. I was trying to save the relationship and backing off, but when it went too much, I was so tired already, I agreed to break up and told her to never contact me no more.
After few hours, she texted me that she can't believe that I broke up with her (?) and again, I calmed myself down and tried to regenerate the relationship. It went fine for few days after, but she started same thing again and over again.
Now she's telling me that she's working too much, she's getting really tired and apologizes for that. I was trying to support her as much as I could and I was agreeing that she needs rest and stuff.
When it continued all over again, I could not resist and told her that she can't find few hours for me in a week and I'm done. We fought, we break up again, but she started to "cry" and texting me that she'll do everything, that I'm right and so on. Well, okay again. We're still in relationship. But this cycle is looping all over again, same thing every single week. No matter if I want to discuss it, she's getting angry and wants to break up instantly and then apologizes for it. It's just getting boring AF.
It's not about relationship only, I really love her, so do she (as for her side, I'm not sure anymore). I don't know what to think. My mind is just blown up by overthinking. Now it's 4th day she didn't text me at all and not even sure what to do.
I also have thoughts that she's cheating on me or something terrible, but still loves me and wants to be with me. I just don't know. I really need your advice guys...
There might be some point I missed, but this cycle is never changing. Also, feel free to ask questions if you got one.
Thank you.
First of all, hi to everyone, I'm new here and I really need your advice, because I'm just freaking out.
As for myself, I'm 23 years old guy (hope this information is enough for now, feel free to ask more if you like tho).
The story.....
So, here it goes. Last year, I managed to travel in Germany, to visit my friend (for about 3 months). We had fun, enjoyed travelling and stuff, then we created profile on social website, just getting know people around, to talk and stuff and one of them, were she, my LDR girlfriend at the moment.
So we began texting to each other, we enjoyed it a lot! We were far away like 100 km's away. After a while, we met in real. We went to cafe, cinema, and so on. We just enjoyed each other.
After few weeks, she told me that I'm really nice guy and if we're not be friends, she would date me and it kinda triggered me and avoided the question. Because, I had two relationships before (both LDR's) one for 7 years, another for 4 years (don't ask how it's possible or stuff, I'm being honest here) and after breaking up with them, I tried to commit suicide for each (and NO, I'm not proud of it). I'm just really sensitive guy, only when it's all about relationships. I'm way too much different guy to friends, random people, but in relationship, I'm seriously sensitive guy and it kinda makes me crazy.
So, after few days, I was analyzing stuff and I gave a chance, I did a step and told her to be my girlfriend and she was happy about it too, so we went in relationship since then.
After few days of texting, we met again and we went to random places each other, cuddling and stuff. After all of that, time was coming for me to leave, cause my train was going soon, so she managed go with me at train station and wait me to leave and then she would go home. I don't wanted to go yet, because I haven't done one important thing and I delayed going at train station with random reasons and when we went at train station, my train was going already, so I could not leave no more and had to wait 4 hours to next train (it was 00:00). So then, I managed to take her at home by myself, we walked together till her home, we went in and I caught a moment and kissed her and we were both really happy. It was late already, I had to leave, because she was working next day and I just left the place (by the way, that day was last day I was there and next day, I traveled back to my country, but told her that I'll be back whenever I can).
After I came to my country, things went worse and worse. She was not texting much, she was getting angry on everything I tell and she even told me that I'm overwhelming her. I went totally crazy after that, she was telling me to "if you don't like that, we should break up" and stuff. I was trying to save the relationship and backing off, but when it went too much, I was so tired already, I agreed to break up and told her to never contact me no more.
After few hours, she texted me that she can't believe that I broke up with her (?) and again, I calmed myself down and tried to regenerate the relationship. It went fine for few days after, but she started same thing again and over again.
Now she's telling me that she's working too much, she's getting really tired and apologizes for that. I was trying to support her as much as I could and I was agreeing that she needs rest and stuff.
When it continued all over again, I could not resist and told her that she can't find few hours for me in a week and I'm done. We fought, we break up again, but she started to "cry" and texting me that she'll do everything, that I'm right and so on. Well, okay again. We're still in relationship. But this cycle is looping all over again, same thing every single week. No matter if I want to discuss it, she's getting angry and wants to break up instantly and then apologizes for it. It's just getting boring AF.
It's not about relationship only, I really love her, so do she (as for her side, I'm not sure anymore). I don't know what to think. My mind is just blown up by overthinking. Now it's 4th day she didn't text me at all and not even sure what to do.
I also have thoughts that she's cheating on me or something terrible, but still loves me and wants to be with me. I just don't know. I really need your advice guys...
There might be some point I missed, but this cycle is never changing. Also, feel free to ask questions if you got one.
Thank you.
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