Hello everyone, some may remember me posting back in spring about how I posted some threads about how effin excited I was to have met the woman of my dreams. Then I stoped posting because everything fell apart more horribly than I ever imagined. this is my story as a warning for all of you. It's long & complicated but all true...
There was this girl who got some minor noteriety on the internet for making some inocculous Youtube vlogs. Eventually she was so flattered by the attention that she accepted an offer to do occassional content for a blog. I saw one through an automatic recommendation one day and was immediately struck by how beautiful and charming she was. So I left her a comment with my thoughts on things she had said, thanking her for sharing and wishing her well in future endeavors. She liked my comment so much that she began to follow me on twitter, we began talking more and more from there to email then instant messaging and finally video chat.
Spending time with her was wonderful. She loves to read and watch good movies and art and camping and shooting guns and games of all kinds and more. Like me, she was a 20something still trying to find her way in life, just starting school again as I had the year prior and it was nice that I didn't have to feel embarrassed about that. She was living with an ex from five years ago but I'm progressive and I didn't care that she had her fanbase, I understood that it must be nice to leave the mundanity of one's every day life to go somewhere where one feels special. She made me feel special. Of all the people she'd met she kept talking to me and I didn't know what would come of it, all I knew was I was falling hard.
The only problem was that she was on the other side of the continent but I couldn't let that stop me from trying. So when one day she told me that she thinks about me all the time and keeps my pictures on her phone to look at while she's out & even had showed her family. I went for it. I said "If you ever feel you really want me, just say wait. Wait until we can figure out a way to explore our attraction in person and I'll do it because how could i go on meeting the women in my every day life when all I've wanted is just a few hours away."
And she was into it! So we agreed to meet in a neutral city because that seemed most fair and things continued to progress. We would spend hours upon hours together almost every day; talking, laughing, sharing our secrets, playing games, having drinks and being intimate in the ways which we were able. She was constantly telling me how handsome I am, how she hoped I would never stop liking her and nothing would change her mind. She would write to me with lots of hearts and make them with her hands when we chatted on video. I was never happier. I hadn't felt this way over a girl since highschool and even though I love my home I was even willing to look for work out there after I finished college if we felt the same way in person.
Then one day she came on video chat and surprised me by having dyed her hair red. It's my favourite hair colour and I was thrilled but her sister kept calling that day. Something was obviously going on. When I inquired about it she said that she was going home but the reason why would just make me angry. I told her that it was ok and she didn't need to share if she didn't want to but I'd be willing to listen if she needed it. She told me that her housemate had wanted to sleep with her and when she said no, that he started a fight with her. That was uncool enough but he further took action against her by waiting until she was asleep to start cumming in her face, saying that she is nothing without him then spitting on her.
I asked her if she had any place to go until her sister could come from seven hours away to take her home but she said no, her friends were more his friends so she would just drive around that evening to stay away. I was very upsetted by this but kept my composure as best I could until she left to pack. Domestic abuse really scares me because my grandmother was beaten so badly that she has been largely deaf for the rest of her life. I couldn't sleep so I stayed up making a mixtape to send her for her birthday made from music I ripped from my record collection and mailed it her mother's the next day. I felt such anxiety until I was relieved to recieve a msg from her telling me that she was home.
When she got home however, I had to deal with a lot of hostility from her pregant twin sister who would stand always off frame saying things such as I look like a coke addict, I'm probably a serial killer, my drawings look nothing like this girl, I don't deserve her, etc. She would often pick fights with this girl over me and though I tried to be patient and assured this sister that she was welcome to say hello anytime to see I really am just a nice man, I eventually reacted by calling her a miserable asshole. She flipped out but at least the abuse stopped. Her nephew however thought I was the greatest. He was always trying to push this girl aside to talk to me and play transformers but this girl & I still found more time than ever to be together by night.
Eventually things got so bad with her sister that she went to stay with her mother but we still talked. The week before her birthday I bought my ticket then she said if I just wanted to bone her to just say so. It broke my heart to have her even suspect that I was trying to trick her into sleeping with me so I told her. I told her that even though we'd never sat in the same room that I was in love with her and she reciprocated! Even after I told her she didn't need to say it just because I did. That Friday I made her a photo set of myself in case her mixtape didn't arrive on time. When I gave it to her she said I was "panties to the floor orgasmic" and we talked for 12 hours that night. I had a wedding to go to the next day so when I had to go she said "It's ok because I know I'll talk to you soon."
Then.. she was gone
There was this girl who got some minor noteriety on the internet for making some inocculous Youtube vlogs. Eventually she was so flattered by the attention that she accepted an offer to do occassional content for a blog. I saw one through an automatic recommendation one day and was immediately struck by how beautiful and charming she was. So I left her a comment with my thoughts on things she had said, thanking her for sharing and wishing her well in future endeavors. She liked my comment so much that she began to follow me on twitter, we began talking more and more from there to email then instant messaging and finally video chat.
Spending time with her was wonderful. She loves to read and watch good movies and art and camping and shooting guns and games of all kinds and more. Like me, she was a 20something still trying to find her way in life, just starting school again as I had the year prior and it was nice that I didn't have to feel embarrassed about that. She was living with an ex from five years ago but I'm progressive and I didn't care that she had her fanbase, I understood that it must be nice to leave the mundanity of one's every day life to go somewhere where one feels special. She made me feel special. Of all the people she'd met she kept talking to me and I didn't know what would come of it, all I knew was I was falling hard.
The only problem was that she was on the other side of the continent but I couldn't let that stop me from trying. So when one day she told me that she thinks about me all the time and keeps my pictures on her phone to look at while she's out & even had showed her family. I went for it. I said "If you ever feel you really want me, just say wait. Wait until we can figure out a way to explore our attraction in person and I'll do it because how could i go on meeting the women in my every day life when all I've wanted is just a few hours away."
And she was into it! So we agreed to meet in a neutral city because that seemed most fair and things continued to progress. We would spend hours upon hours together almost every day; talking, laughing, sharing our secrets, playing games, having drinks and being intimate in the ways which we were able. She was constantly telling me how handsome I am, how she hoped I would never stop liking her and nothing would change her mind. She would write to me with lots of hearts and make them with her hands when we chatted on video. I was never happier. I hadn't felt this way over a girl since highschool and even though I love my home I was even willing to look for work out there after I finished college if we felt the same way in person.
Then one day she came on video chat and surprised me by having dyed her hair red. It's my favourite hair colour and I was thrilled but her sister kept calling that day. Something was obviously going on. When I inquired about it she said that she was going home but the reason why would just make me angry. I told her that it was ok and she didn't need to share if she didn't want to but I'd be willing to listen if she needed it. She told me that her housemate had wanted to sleep with her and when she said no, that he started a fight with her. That was uncool enough but he further took action against her by waiting until she was asleep to start cumming in her face, saying that she is nothing without him then spitting on her.
I asked her if she had any place to go until her sister could come from seven hours away to take her home but she said no, her friends were more his friends so she would just drive around that evening to stay away. I was very upsetted by this but kept my composure as best I could until she left to pack. Domestic abuse really scares me because my grandmother was beaten so badly that she has been largely deaf for the rest of her life. I couldn't sleep so I stayed up making a mixtape to send her for her birthday made from music I ripped from my record collection and mailed it her mother's the next day. I felt such anxiety until I was relieved to recieve a msg from her telling me that she was home.
When she got home however, I had to deal with a lot of hostility from her pregant twin sister who would stand always off frame saying things such as I look like a coke addict, I'm probably a serial killer, my drawings look nothing like this girl, I don't deserve her, etc. She would often pick fights with this girl over me and though I tried to be patient and assured this sister that she was welcome to say hello anytime to see I really am just a nice man, I eventually reacted by calling her a miserable asshole. She flipped out but at least the abuse stopped. Her nephew however thought I was the greatest. He was always trying to push this girl aside to talk to me and play transformers but this girl & I still found more time than ever to be together by night.
Eventually things got so bad with her sister that she went to stay with her mother but we still talked. The week before her birthday I bought my ticket then she said if I just wanted to bone her to just say so. It broke my heart to have her even suspect that I was trying to trick her into sleeping with me so I told her. I told her that even though we'd never sat in the same room that I was in love with her and she reciprocated! Even after I told her she didn't need to say it just because I did. That Friday I made her a photo set of myself in case her mixtape didn't arrive on time. When I gave it to her she said I was "panties to the floor orgasmic" and we talked for 12 hours that night. I had a wedding to go to the next day so when I had to go she said "It's ok because I know I'll talk to you soon."
Then.. she was gone
A great deal of people here met through the internet. It's because I think you missed some red flags there, but that's understandable enough. Mental illness can be hereditary and I wonder if her sister isn't affected too, with the way she acted? She very well could be sociopathic, maybe even with a dash of narcissistic personality disorder thrown in for good measure, with her need for attention. Anyway, these things can certainly happen with an LDR, or a CDR, or any kind of "R", but yeah, it is a bit easier to get away with from far away, and you should most definitely be wary of anyone you meet online. Your story is a good reminder for that.
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