Long story short... been together 4 years and have spent 1.5 years a part, marriage came up and I was delighted but he had other plans. Things are getting petty and confusing, he refuses to consider marriage due to whats ifs and maybes, visa commitment reasoning taking over and suggesting we wait another 3 years before marriage.
Can't say this hasn't broken my heart, when imagining a life with someone you never foresee the negative or sadness. Recently, during a marriage talk he made it clear he will not be changing his mind and perhaps it would be easier to break up rather than consider marriage. Saying the bullshit quotes of 'if you love something let it go' etc. But now he's visiting because its our anniversary and he doesn't want me to be alone lol.
There is only so much a person can take, only so much a person can emotionally accept before completely losing themselves. Seriously don't know what to do now, what to say or how to act, been completely avoiding his family and friends because my words may lie but somehow facial expressions always expose the truth.
Any advice, any insight or any words of wisdom will be greatly appreciated!! Thank you in advance.
Can't say this hasn't broken my heart, when imagining a life with someone you never foresee the negative or sadness. Recently, during a marriage talk he made it clear he will not be changing his mind and perhaps it would be easier to break up rather than consider marriage. Saying the bullshit quotes of 'if you love something let it go' etc. But now he's visiting because its our anniversary and he doesn't want me to be alone lol.
There is only so much a person can take, only so much a person can emotionally accept before completely losing themselves. Seriously don't know what to do now, what to say or how to act, been completely avoiding his family and friends because my words may lie but somehow facial expressions always expose the truth.
Any advice, any insight or any words of wisdom will be greatly appreciated!! Thank you in advance.
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