The day has barely begun and already i hate it!!! Denise told me that they told the landlord that the rent might come a bit later this month, and he told them "whats the point in living in a place that you cant afford" they have been paying there rent on time since they have been living there and he should take that in account, but she's freaking out which is understandable. But she got an email from the lawyer guy that i was talking to the other day and he said this "the risk I am referring to is the risk that you will not be able to come back to the US as a visitor. If you are willing to live with losing that option, we can talk about involving you and Caitlin in a fiance visa petition related project, or if you are married in a challenge to DOMA in the court of public opinion. I do not want you and Caitlin to rush into any activism that will possibly end up keeping you apart"
That is something im really terrified to do! If we do this and it doesnt work then she wont be able to visit the US anymore, and im not sure about me if we go along with this. This is something we have to talk about in full detail in person, i cant make a decision like that without seeing her! And to top it off since these past few months have been stressful for the both of us including today, we have hit another rough patch and i dont like it!!!! I feel like im losing her and it scares the hell out of me, she's my soulmate, i love her so much and i dont wanna lose her!!! im scared really really really scared, i dont know what to do! I knew this wasent gonna be easy going into this but this is almost too much!!! Do we do this and risk her not visiting ever again, or do we go with the original plan that we have? I dont know what to do!!!!
ETA: good news for you guys! Her roomates check came in today and now they can pay the rent on time so its all good with that but now there gonna apply for housing and financial assistance which is gonna help big time!! And this morning was a very true test on what we can go through and still remain together, but we were close to having the breakup conversation this morning, and i know every couple goes through that at least once but i NEVER wanna experiance that again! that was beyond horrible, but we proved if we can get through that then we can through anything that is thrown at us!!
That is something im really terrified to do! If we do this and it doesnt work then she wont be able to visit the US anymore, and im not sure about me if we go along with this. This is something we have to talk about in full detail in person, i cant make a decision like that without seeing her! And to top it off since these past few months have been stressful for the both of us including today, we have hit another rough patch and i dont like it!!!! I feel like im losing her and it scares the hell out of me, she's my soulmate, i love her so much and i dont wanna lose her!!! im scared really really really scared, i dont know what to do! I knew this wasent gonna be easy going into this but this is almost too much!!! Do we do this and risk her not visiting ever again, or do we go with the original plan that we have? I dont know what to do!!!!
ETA: good news for you guys! Her roomates check came in today and now they can pay the rent on time so its all good with that but now there gonna apply for housing and financial assistance which is gonna help big time!! And this morning was a very true test on what we can go through and still remain together, but we were close to having the breakup conversation this morning, and i know every couple goes through that at least once but i NEVER wanna experiance that again! that was beyond horrible, but we proved if we can get through that then we can through anything that is thrown at us!!
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