Please, i need help, i really need to know what to do fast.

[Karringtyn]

I think perhaps it was for the best but I know you're hurting all the same. We're all here if you need us.

Totally agree.

If you want to talk we are ALL here to listen...

[ryanscriven]

a little bit had happened since before my post earlier today, she actually mvoed back to olympia, and things were pretty nice, until abotu a week and half ago, and some lies started happening, and some boundary crossing.

i actually almost ended it, it wasnt good what was happening. but she said she would talk to someone(proffesional) then we had our one year date this last monday, that was amazing, then the day after we ended up seeing eachother for a bit in the evening, and taht was even better, just. good times. then last night, she just calls, saying she didnt want to talk, that she amde up her mind, that too much had happened in the last year and she was leaving.

i didnt get to say anything. she said nothing had happened yesterday, but i know she is lying, just from something as simple as facebook things, i know there was something she wasnt saying, its not complete paranoia.

im just hurting, and trying to figure out how to move forward.

my counselor ive been seeign says that dating someone so soon after my brothers death, its like a death again, whenever we would split up. i just hate how much i think he is right.

[Tanja]

I'm sorry you're going through this... You must be hurting so much right now.

It's a great thing that you have someone you can talk to openly, I'm sure it's going to help you a lot in your way of progressing and handling these feelings.
Grieving takes it's time and you can't/shouldn't rush it. I now think after reading your post that despite of who you would've dated it would've been too soon since you're still emotionally vulnerable and not ready for a relationship until you've healed thoroughly.

I wish you the best and lots of strength to get through this! ♥

[ryanscriven]

oh i know it was too soon, but, haha, its just the combination between that and the lies. i just. dont know what to think, but im sticking with counseling, im trying to not rush myself anymore