Let me start out by saying: I am a gamer. I play World of Warcraft and have been an active member of the WoW community for around 10 years.
In July I went through a breakup. One of my friends from game stepped up. Emotionally we were very connected, I felt an instant draw to him but neither one of us wanted a long distance relationship. Neither of us can move. I feel absolutely dumb for telling anyone this, I KNOW how stupid it is.. but I can't figure this out. I can't figure out where my head is with this and I'm reaching out to anyone at all that can relate. I feel a draw to a guy I know I'll probably never even meet and who I've fallen for in a way I've never done before. I barely know him.
I found myself in a relationship/not really relationship with this guy. At first he was very attentive, we talked all the time - “Off game”, using texts. In game as well, and on voice chats. We kept tethers on each other, making sure we each knew the other's lives. This was all done with the knowledge that we'd never move into real life and were there as emotional support until one or the other found a “real” relationship. We agreed that as far as our online community was concerned we wanted to be seen as “together” and committed to each other in that sense.
Since then, things have been very strange. He behaves strangely: very involved and in touch one minute then with the flip of a switch distant and evasive. My head tells me “what's the point. You'll never meet”. I find myself waiting for him, blocking out time when I can spend it with him, when he may be around. I'm anxious and always wondering if other girls he talks to are told the same thing. I guess something in my head is screaming that things are wrong.. but I can't pull away. I talk myself into pulling away and then all he has to do is say “Hi love”.
People say “it's online, who cares?” but the connection I formed with him is real in some sense and it's that connection I can't bring myself to let go of. I want to know who he is, I want to figure this out and I don't know how to grasp the knowledge that I never will.
Have you ever had someone you feel a connection to but know you can never really be with? Is there anyone out there who might be able to relate? I have nobody to talk to about the things he does, the feelings and emotions driven by him. I'm on a long distance relationship forum in the hopes that someone, somewhere, can help me get my head right regarding this. There are so many more details, but I'm unsure how to articulate them and don't want this to be too long.
In July I went through a breakup. One of my friends from game stepped up. Emotionally we were very connected, I felt an instant draw to him but neither one of us wanted a long distance relationship. Neither of us can move. I feel absolutely dumb for telling anyone this, I KNOW how stupid it is.. but I can't figure this out. I can't figure out where my head is with this and I'm reaching out to anyone at all that can relate. I feel a draw to a guy I know I'll probably never even meet and who I've fallen for in a way I've never done before. I barely know him.
I found myself in a relationship/not really relationship with this guy. At first he was very attentive, we talked all the time - “Off game”, using texts. In game as well, and on voice chats. We kept tethers on each other, making sure we each knew the other's lives. This was all done with the knowledge that we'd never move into real life and were there as emotional support until one or the other found a “real” relationship. We agreed that as far as our online community was concerned we wanted to be seen as “together” and committed to each other in that sense.
Since then, things have been very strange. He behaves strangely: very involved and in touch one minute then with the flip of a switch distant and evasive. My head tells me “what's the point. You'll never meet”. I find myself waiting for him, blocking out time when I can spend it with him, when he may be around. I'm anxious and always wondering if other girls he talks to are told the same thing. I guess something in my head is screaming that things are wrong.. but I can't pull away. I talk myself into pulling away and then all he has to do is say “Hi love”.
People say “it's online, who cares?” but the connection I formed with him is real in some sense and it's that connection I can't bring myself to let go of. I want to know who he is, I want to figure this out and I don't know how to grasp the knowledge that I never will.
Have you ever had someone you feel a connection to but know you can never really be with? Is there anyone out there who might be able to relate? I have nobody to talk to about the things he does, the feelings and emotions driven by him. I'm on a long distance relationship forum in the hopes that someone, somewhere, can help me get my head right regarding this. There are so many more details, but I'm unsure how to articulate them and don't want this to be too long.
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