..but this time it's urgent...not like it wasn't before.
So this is going to sound like ignorant teenage dramatic babble, but either way.
My SO has just recently started college and only has it twice a week. The rest of the days are spent with him taking care of his grandmother, watching his baby sister (because his mom seems to be constantly busy....hmmm) and engaging in this SERIOUS Lit RP that, while not stressful, is very time consuming. So he's swamped. Oh, and did I mention that he also has to deal with me and my depression? Me constantly begging him to call me, needing him?
The only reason I turn here is because you people KNOW! You understand a LDR and people around here don't, and shun them.
So I tried to think of a way I could help ease his stress. I thought "gaaah! why can't everything that stresses him just GO AWAY!?" then it hit me: a break. Now I'm not saying a "we're-not-a-couple-anymore" break, I meant a communication block. And, to my dismay he, confused, agreed.
The next two days drove me crazy to the point where I couldn't sleep. I just wanted to talk to him so badly. So, Sunday night I cracked and IMed him and told him I changed my mind. He's still stressed, but at least I'm attempting to give him space. But now, after practically losing my mind Sunday, I feel like something is wrong with US. I feel like something is missing and I don't know what, but it's bugging me. We're talking like normal again, but I feel like my screw-up has killed something that was there. Any ideas? Also, ideas for how I can distract myself when he's busy instead of going insane from lack of contact?
Oh, and sorry this is SO long.
Thanks in advance guys!
So this is going to sound like ignorant teenage dramatic babble, but either way.
My SO has just recently started college and only has it twice a week. The rest of the days are spent with him taking care of his grandmother, watching his baby sister (because his mom seems to be constantly busy....hmmm) and engaging in this SERIOUS Lit RP that, while not stressful, is very time consuming. So he's swamped. Oh, and did I mention that he also has to deal with me and my depression? Me constantly begging him to call me, needing him?
The only reason I turn here is because you people KNOW! You understand a LDR and people around here don't, and shun them.
So I tried to think of a way I could help ease his stress. I thought "gaaah! why can't everything that stresses him just GO AWAY!?" then it hit me: a break. Now I'm not saying a "we're-not-a-couple-anymore" break, I meant a communication block. And, to my dismay he, confused, agreed.
The next two days drove me crazy to the point where I couldn't sleep. I just wanted to talk to him so badly. So, Sunday night I cracked and IMed him and told him I changed my mind. He's still stressed, but at least I'm attempting to give him space. But now, after practically losing my mind Sunday, I feel like something is wrong with US. I feel like something is missing and I don't know what, but it's bugging me. We're talking like normal again, but I feel like my screw-up has killed something that was there. Any ideas? Also, ideas for how I can distract myself when he's busy instead of going insane from lack of contact?
Oh, and sorry this is SO long.
Thanks in advance guys!
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