So I feel like the roller coaster is on a big dip at the moment after a few weeks of up high.
I have a LOT of non-relationship stress happening in my life at the moment so I am pretty overwhelmed on all fronts which has made me exhausted and fragile.
And with my SO I am finding that I am needing reassurance that is not forthcoming. I mean, she is a bit backed off this week but I am flailing as if she'd run off with the neighbor. I feel that, right now, very little she can do would be enough to bring me out of this funk and I am worried I am hanging too much hope on her to lift me up. I don't want to weigh her down and feel I am too reliant on her to lift me up and that's too much pressure.
Sometimes when we have loosely arranged to vidchat, I will get a text saying, "let's not chat tonight I'm tired" or "it's been a bad day" or something. Now it's ok, I don't want to force her to chat when she's not in the mood but I am planning my evening around the vid chat. Sometimes she cancels and I'm thinking, if I had have known I would have done something else, but it's too late now. I feel like a baby being upset by this but it upsets me nonetheless.
It happened tonight, no real solid plans but an expectation. She had had a hard day moving and sent me a brief message, ending "have a good night". I asked if we were chatting later and the reply was, "no sorry tired".
I feel precious being offended by that but if the situation was reversed I'd have said something more explanatory...
It just felt there was something cold in her response.
But even as I write this I think I am being over sensitive. Can someone give me some perspective please?
I am having a lot of trouble getting hold of my emotions. Mentally I can see I need to back off a bit and relax, not read into things. But emotionally, everytime I get a text that is a bit indifferent or not lovey enough, I am freaking out and going into an emotional tailspin.
I hope I'm not the only one who feels like this from time to time, but I would love some tips in how to deal with it before it becomes a toxic influence in our relationship.
I'm just editing this to add the flip side to my over sensitiveness.
I have a LOT of non-relationship stress happening in my life at the moment so I am pretty overwhelmed on all fronts which has made me exhausted and fragile.
And with my SO I am finding that I am needing reassurance that is not forthcoming. I mean, she is a bit backed off this week but I am flailing as if she'd run off with the neighbor. I feel that, right now, very little she can do would be enough to bring me out of this funk and I am worried I am hanging too much hope on her to lift me up. I don't want to weigh her down and feel I am too reliant on her to lift me up and that's too much pressure.
Sometimes when we have loosely arranged to vidchat, I will get a text saying, "let's not chat tonight I'm tired" or "it's been a bad day" or something. Now it's ok, I don't want to force her to chat when she's not in the mood but I am planning my evening around the vid chat. Sometimes she cancels and I'm thinking, if I had have known I would have done something else, but it's too late now. I feel like a baby being upset by this but it upsets me nonetheless.
It happened tonight, no real solid plans but an expectation. She had had a hard day moving and sent me a brief message, ending "have a good night". I asked if we were chatting later and the reply was, "no sorry tired".
I feel precious being offended by that but if the situation was reversed I'd have said something more explanatory...
It just felt there was something cold in her response.
But even as I write this I think I am being over sensitive. Can someone give me some perspective please?
I am having a lot of trouble getting hold of my emotions. Mentally I can see I need to back off a bit and relax, not read into things. But emotionally, everytime I get a text that is a bit indifferent or not lovey enough, I am freaking out and going into an emotional tailspin.
I hope I'm not the only one who feels like this from time to time, but I would love some tips in how to deal with it before it becomes a toxic influence in our relationship.
I'm just editing this to add the flip side to my over sensitiveness.
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