Hi. I'm 19F and my bf is 24. He is my first boyfriend and we've been in a LDR for almost 2yrs now. I know this sounds crazy but we still haven't seen each other yet and my parents don't know (they'll kill me if they knew) and only some of my friends know (since im sure the ones who doesn't know won't agree to this).
We met in an online game and have been in a relationship since then. I've always dreamt of seeing him and the long wait is killing me but I try to wait patiently since he said he'll find a way. We're both working and I would really love to visit him there instead but I'm sure my parents won't allow me. I've been in a tight position for 2 years.
I always find myself crying and feeling sad before going to sleep so I try to distract myself through work and playing games. I try talking to him about it and he tries to assure me that he will come to visit me, so the problem is seriously me😢 He is a very sweet and nice guy. Always listening and supports me in everything I do. However, when he started working, he became very busy and it makes me feel so empty inside. Saying our goodmornings and goodnights like it's just some forced routine. Nothing exciting at all since I was so used to it. I always felt like there was something missing in our relationship. Negative thoughts keep popping inside my head like, 'is this really worth it?', 'do you really think he's the same guy you see in the chat/videocalls?' and 'do you understand what you've been doin for the past 2 yrs?'
I just wanted a normal and happy relationship like most girls have and I knew I signed up for this. I'm tired but I love him and I don't want to lose him. (Wait- do I really love him? Or only the one on chat/vc? What about the real him?).
If I think about all these things, I'm sure to get crazy. I looked it up on the internet and it says I have LDR Depression or not (I may be just overthinking and a little too paranoid). Does anyone here have this too? How do you cope with it and what can you suggest me to do with my situation? All your answers would be gladly appreciated💕
We met in an online game and have been in a relationship since then. I've always dreamt of seeing him and the long wait is killing me but I try to wait patiently since he said he'll find a way. We're both working and I would really love to visit him there instead but I'm sure my parents won't allow me. I've been in a tight position for 2 years.
I always find myself crying and feeling sad before going to sleep so I try to distract myself through work and playing games. I try talking to him about it and he tries to assure me that he will come to visit me, so the problem is seriously me😢 He is a very sweet and nice guy. Always listening and supports me in everything I do. However, when he started working, he became very busy and it makes me feel so empty inside. Saying our goodmornings and goodnights like it's just some forced routine. Nothing exciting at all since I was so used to it. I always felt like there was something missing in our relationship. Negative thoughts keep popping inside my head like, 'is this really worth it?', 'do you really think he's the same guy you see in the chat/videocalls?' and 'do you understand what you've been doin for the past 2 yrs?'
I just wanted a normal and happy relationship like most girls have and I knew I signed up for this. I'm tired but I love him and I don't want to lose him. (Wait- do I really love him? Or only the one on chat/vc? What about the real him?).
If I think about all these things, I'm sure to get crazy. I looked it up on the internet and it says I have LDR Depression or not (I may be just overthinking and a little too paranoid). Does anyone here have this too? How do you cope with it and what can you suggest me to do with my situation? All your answers would be gladly appreciated💕
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