woke up this morning with this nagging feeling of doubting if this relationship will last.
freaked me out, since my ticket is booked.... and with la little less than 2 months before meeting him.
reason is that he has been really 'cold' to me the last week.
I know there is a lot going on in his life at this moment so he doesn't have too much time for a little chat, but he said something last night that crawled into the back of my head.
this is what he said
or maybe i just have a lot of things going on in my life now. our relationship doesn't always revolve around you.
this actually made me mad and sad at the same time.
mad because he KNOWS I know it's not about me.....
sad because I only emailed him to ask how things are going and I get this answer.
don't know how it works with other people, but I am used to offer support to people who are facing a hard time... by doing things for them, or just be there for a talk. it has nothing to do with me actually.....
so I offered the man I love a virtual shoulder..... and I got this.
to me this cold answer is a sort of pinkish, soft red sort of flag alert.
this is not the way you talk to your GF right? we had our moments in the past.... but it was always with a sort of passion.... this is just cold and distant.
I got mad and told him I was just asking him how he is doing because I care ... and that love is a two way street..... I most certainly do not need to know any thing that happens in his life....but a little basic info on what is happening, is a must in my opinion.... I shouldn't have to drag info out of him, should I?
and if he does this right now.... he will do it again....
so I am worried....
love him to bits.... but no man is ever going to treat me like this....
I know now is not a good time to talk but we will have a good discussion about it some time later.
but for now..... doubts about this LDR have risen..... and I don't know what to do....
because I know I don't forgive and forget that easily..... this will linger for a long time.... how do we survive this? I don't know what his view on this is yet... but I sure do know that once I decide it's over, it's over.
any thoughts? I really would appreciate that because right now, I really have no clue how to handle this...
one day on cloud number 9..... the next straight into ... yeah what?
unbelievable!!!!
freaked me out, since my ticket is booked.... and with la little less than 2 months before meeting him.
reason is that he has been really 'cold' to me the last week.
I know there is a lot going on in his life at this moment so he doesn't have too much time for a little chat, but he said something last night that crawled into the back of my head.
this is what he said
or maybe i just have a lot of things going on in my life now. our relationship doesn't always revolve around you.
this actually made me mad and sad at the same time.
mad because he KNOWS I know it's not about me.....
sad because I only emailed him to ask how things are going and I get this answer.
don't know how it works with other people, but I am used to offer support to people who are facing a hard time... by doing things for them, or just be there for a talk. it has nothing to do with me actually.....
so I offered the man I love a virtual shoulder..... and I got this.
to me this cold answer is a sort of pinkish, soft red sort of flag alert.
this is not the way you talk to your GF right? we had our moments in the past.... but it was always with a sort of passion.... this is just cold and distant.
I got mad and told him I was just asking him how he is doing because I care ... and that love is a two way street..... I most certainly do not need to know any thing that happens in his life....but a little basic info on what is happening, is a must in my opinion.... I shouldn't have to drag info out of him, should I?
and if he does this right now.... he will do it again....
so I am worried....
love him to bits.... but no man is ever going to treat me like this....
I know now is not a good time to talk but we will have a good discussion about it some time later.
but for now..... doubts about this LDR have risen..... and I don't know what to do....
because I know I don't forgive and forget that easily..... this will linger for a long time.... how do we survive this? I don't know what his view on this is yet... but I sure do know that once I decide it's over, it's over.
any thoughts? I really would appreciate that because right now, I really have no clue how to handle this...
one day on cloud number 9..... the next straight into ... yeah what?
unbelievable!!!!
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