I know i've been thinking of it for too long really. But i just can't get over it.
As some already know i found out when i moved here to be with my Katelyn that she danced with another guy. From what i understood back then it was in april or something. We were together at that point. Now yesterday i asked some of her friends about it. One of her friends was really helpful and said it was really short and awkward and i shouldn't worry about it. That she's not like that. The other said it was suddenly in July. Then i got a new weird thing on my mind. It was at one of her friends bday parties so i checked her bday. It was July 27th. At that time it was just 9 days til i would arrive. I remember myself walking around trying to make time go by. I know it's like 3 months ago but it still hurts so much. I'm trying not to think about it. I'm trying not to let it bother me that much. But lately it feels in a way that we are sliding apart. That might very much be my fault with my never-ending issues. So while two of her friends was really helpful and said that she's not like that and it was a one-time thing and it didn't mean anything, her third friend had a different approach. She started complaining about me. She justified Katelyn's actions and said that it was my decision to come here and that noone forced me too.
She was the last one i spoke to and that hurt. I just felt so unwelcomed here all of a sudden. Like Katelyn didn't want me to come here, even if it was her friend that said that.
To conclude i don't really know how to deal with it all. It's just so much all the freakin time. I don't regret coming here. I still love her. She's my everything in the whole wide world.
The only reason i put it in this forum is that i want to get answers kind of fast and from a variety of people.
As some already know i found out when i moved here to be with my Katelyn that she danced with another guy. From what i understood back then it was in april or something. We were together at that point. Now yesterday i asked some of her friends about it. One of her friends was really helpful and said it was really short and awkward and i shouldn't worry about it. That she's not like that. The other said it was suddenly in July. Then i got a new weird thing on my mind. It was at one of her friends bday parties so i checked her bday. It was July 27th. At that time it was just 9 days til i would arrive. I remember myself walking around trying to make time go by. I know it's like 3 months ago but it still hurts so much. I'm trying not to think about it. I'm trying not to let it bother me that much. But lately it feels in a way that we are sliding apart. That might very much be my fault with my never-ending issues. So while two of her friends was really helpful and said that she's not like that and it was a one-time thing and it didn't mean anything, her third friend had a different approach. She started complaining about me. She justified Katelyn's actions and said that it was my decision to come here and that noone forced me too.
She was the last one i spoke to and that hurt. I just felt so unwelcomed here all of a sudden. Like Katelyn didn't want me to come here, even if it was her friend that said that.
To conclude i don't really know how to deal with it all. It's just so much all the freakin time. I don't regret coming here. I still love her. She's my everything in the whole wide world.
The only reason i put it in this forum is that i want to get answers kind of fast and from a variety of people.
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