I have been feeling really depressed lately about my relationship. He is waiting for a settlement to come through on a car accident and that money he is going to use to come here for our first visit and then to move here. It keeps getting put off by the lawyer..he was suppose to have it a year ago, and then it was by the end of 2009, and then it was the first of Jan. 2010, then it was by March..now no one knows when it will be. The lawyer called him just last week and told him he was just waiting for a court date.
Well, then he also has 2 cars. and he has been talking about selling one of them, and then use the money to come visit me. Well he put them in the paper..its a nice bright yellow cobra mustang...and he didn't get any serious offers. Then I told him about this website that you can go to, and you put in the information of the car, and get a quote and then take it to the car dealership to either trade it in, or get the cash for it. He has had all weekend..and has he done anything about it? NO! I mean it seems like it would take like 2 hours and his car would be sold. He tells me and tells me that he wants to be here, and we talk about our future and all, and then he just sits on this gold mine that I found? What the hell?!?!?
It makes me sooooo incredibly sad. In my mind, all i can say to myself is he doesn't really want it. I NEED some action behind those words. We argue about this often. He knows how i feel. He just told me that he didn't do anything with the website, and I said why not? he said, cause I just haven't. I say again why? cause I haven't. I say..whatever! He doesn't say anythign else to it, but in my mind, it hurts! It hurts my feelings so bad that he isn't willing to do it. I know he doesn't want to give up the car..but when he gets the settlement he can buy another one. It makes me feel like his car means more to him then I do. It makes me feel so incredibly worthless. It makes me feel like all our hopes and dreams and thought and plans are all for nothing. He will never come. He doesn't want it as bad as I do. I mean what else am i suppose to think?
Well, then he also has 2 cars. and he has been talking about selling one of them, and then use the money to come visit me. Well he put them in the paper..its a nice bright yellow cobra mustang...and he didn't get any serious offers. Then I told him about this website that you can go to, and you put in the information of the car, and get a quote and then take it to the car dealership to either trade it in, or get the cash for it. He has had all weekend..and has he done anything about it? NO! I mean it seems like it would take like 2 hours and his car would be sold. He tells me and tells me that he wants to be here, and we talk about our future and all, and then he just sits on this gold mine that I found? What the hell?!?!?
It makes me sooooo incredibly sad. In my mind, all i can say to myself is he doesn't really want it. I NEED some action behind those words. We argue about this often. He knows how i feel. He just told me that he didn't do anything with the website, and I said why not? he said, cause I just haven't. I say again why? cause I haven't. I say..whatever! He doesn't say anythign else to it, but in my mind, it hurts! It hurts my feelings so bad that he isn't willing to do it. I know he doesn't want to give up the car..but when he gets the settlement he can buy another one. It makes me feel like his car means more to him then I do. It makes me feel so incredibly worthless. It makes me feel like all our hopes and dreams and thought and plans are all for nothing. He will never come. He doesn't want it as bad as I do. I mean what else am i suppose to think?
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